I went off track at Christmas and too scared to weigh myself. I think I have gained a stone. Each day I wake up and say i will start again but eventually I feel I must have that cup of tea or some lunch- you get the picture.
I try to do my crooked thinking/ balanced thinking exercises but even after doing them I override whatever positive thought I had and just stuuff down/ drink what i want compulsively.
I decided to go to my first management today and get back on track but it starts in 10 minutes and I have talked myself out of going. I will feel embarrassed as I look bigger, also started to woory about the cost.
Plus I wonder am I doomed to be overweight? Despite all I learned on foundation I still have the ability to bury my head and just eat and eat and seek out the slightly more stretchy jeans etc.
I feel like no what I learn this is becoming like any other diet because I am STILL doing all those bad things and though I know what I should be doing I am not. Noone can actually FORCE me to eat. It's a choice and I am still choosing badly.
I am wondering if I should try Lee Janogly's Stop Binging programme- maybe that would help or is it a case of am I wasting my time and money? I have spent over £800 so far to lose 2 stones and then re-gain one of them. That seems like I am not cut out for this because I have really sacrificed financially and still nothing can kick me into shape.:break_diet:
I try to do my crooked thinking/ balanced thinking exercises but even after doing them I override whatever positive thought I had and just stuuff down/ drink what i want compulsively.
I decided to go to my first management today and get back on track but it starts in 10 minutes and I have talked myself out of going. I will feel embarrassed as I look bigger, also started to woory about the cost.
Plus I wonder am I doomed to be overweight? Despite all I learned on foundation I still have the ability to bury my head and just eat and eat and seek out the slightly more stretchy jeans etc.
I feel like no what I learn this is becoming like any other diet because I am STILL doing all those bad things and though I know what I should be doing I am not. Noone can actually FORCE me to eat. It's a choice and I am still choosing badly.
I am wondering if I should try Lee Janogly's Stop Binging programme- maybe that would help or is it a case of am I wasting my time and money? I have spent over £800 so far to lose 2 stones and then re-gain one of them. That seems like I am not cut out for this because I have really sacrificed financially and still nothing can kick me into shape.:break_diet: