| (((hugs)))
I completely empathise with you. We've all been there and I tell you it's a nasty doubled edged sword.
All I ca say is ... you're beginning to form this unhealthy habit and it's etting dangerous. Binge / starve cycle is so scary. You have to find a way to break the habit. You've done so well thus far..... may be your low self-esteem is playing tricks on you. I'm not a psychotherapist so I really can't say, but even me who is 8 stone from her ideal goal has the same thoughts as you. I think we have to battle through and take 1 hour at a time and come on to Minimins for support when it gets really bad.
Please stay, please don't be afraid to post. You aren't a fraud, you are just human and all of us go through times like this.
You aren't the first, you won't be the last, but the difference between those who fail and those who succeed, despite the blips, are those who admit to their failings, brush themselves off and keep going. You writing this post demonstrates you are a fighter and you want and desire to succeed. I've said it before and I'll say it again - your resillience and perserverence when times have gone wrong makes you a pretty strong willed person, dare I say, more so than those who have followed the VLCD way 100% - it takes unrivalled grit to climb back onto the wagon in the full knowledge of 1) what is to be expected on the wagon and 2) the lovely food you're leaving behind!
Speak with your LLC. Keep posting on here. I'll always listen.
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