| Back from my holidays...
An interesting time was had.
As promised, here are the photos of me in a bikini (taken on auto timer so not the best photo ever) and also the photo of what my tummy looked like about 6 stone ago.
I felt thin a lot - most of all in the plane when there was room to spare in my seat and I could almost do the seat belt to the tightest.
But I also felt very fat. Well - not very, just started to wonder if my goal is correct - I have a feeling that I may need to lose another 2.5 stone to get to where I think I should be.
The other strange thing about the holiday was the fact that the person I was with had such an issue with my foodpacks - she kept on panicking about whether I'd had enough or not - and no matter how hard I tried to explain that I could down all 4 of them all in one go if I wanted, she was obsessed! Also - every time the person I was with would order food, they would bring out extra plates - I wasn't bothered, but she was upset by it. There was a bit where our bill had 80 cents on it and I translated the Greek (get me!) as being a cover charge. This is what they charge you for the cutlery and bread but she was insistent that they charged it because I wasn't eating. I had to show her my rough guide to prove it to her! I enjoyed my first few times sitting in a taverna, but eventually I got fed up of wasting hours of my holiday watching other people eat. My family kept inviting us out for meals - eventually I had to speak up and say 'I haven't got a problem with people eating, but I keep having to stop what I'm doing to watch you eat for 2-3 hours - and I'm starting to resent it'.
The only minor slips I had were when other people ordered my greek coffee for me - I know enough greek to ask for 'sketo' coffee - no sugar - other people wouldn't know to do this and I would end up with a sip of sugary coffee. It tasted of soap! So I had two sips of sweet coffee - the first time I have broken LL in any way whatsoever! It actually feels a bit liberating as I have been such a good girl for 5 months I was worried that I was going to go mad when I started management!
So I'm back - I succeeded and I'm now safely in the 11s. I know that my next challenge is over my body image. I am not sure when I am going to be happy. I explained in Yorkiegirl's post that I am both happy and dissatisfied with my body. I have to start learning the lesson of good enough.
I shall take it easy today. I am very tired!
__________________ Sarah Visit my blog for (almost) the whole story
http://keepoffthearse.wordpress.com Jan 7th 2007 18st 2 and 42in waist - size 24 Got to Goal on August 12th 2007...10st and size 8-10
Second full attempt started March 10th 2011
Week 1: 10lbs Week 2: 4.5lbs Week 3: 4lbs Week 4: 3lbs
Week 5: 4lbs
Week 6: 3.5lbs
Week 7: 5lbs
Week 8: 4lbs
Week 9: 2.5lbs
Week 10: 0.5lbs
Week 11: 8lbs
Week 12: 2lbs
Week 13: 810: +2lbs (was 100%)
Week 14: 6lbs
Week 15: 1lb
Week 16: 4lb
Week 17: 4lb
Week 18: 3lb
Week 21: 7lb (Week 21 = 810)
1st 7.5lbs - 21.5lbs in 4 weeks
2st 10lbs - 38lbs in 8 weeks
3st 9lbs - 51lbs in 12 weeks
4st 4lbs - 60lbs in 16 weeks
5st 4lbs 74lbs in 21 weeks
Week 21 Size 12 - 13 BMI points lost
12.5 inches waist 12.5 inches hips 9 inches bust
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