Hi Lesage
Welcome, and sorry to hear you are feeling a bit nervous and sad about restarting.
As Lisa said - you only fail when you don't try. Chin up - you know you can do it, as you did before. It just might take a wee bit longer for you to get into that "zone", which is understandable for as you say, you know what to expect, etc.
BUt you will do it again if you put your mind to it.
Your post has come at a very good time for me. I am just about at a 7 stone loss. And I too ahve been feeling a bit fed up with it - not so much as fed up, but really thinking real food would be so nice again, that my patience has been challeneged. And yes, people saying "you look great " "You must be done!" doesn't help. It can tweak your litter inner voice box! But I still have 2-3 stone to go if I stick to my original goal of 10 stone. SO thank you for that.
I often tell people who feel bad about themselves for lapsing or putting the weight back on, etc., that not only do they show strength for coming back to do it again, but you help others by sharing your stories - we can learn form you that went ahead of us. I know it is at your cost, but it's not in vain.
I hope that comes across alright! Hard to put into words sometimes.
ANyway - welcome back, and you already have loads of people behind you just by coming here - so do come often - you will get great support here. We all gotta lean on each other sometimes.
Good luck!!!
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