Thank you all so much for your lovely comments. I can see that this is a really supportive site, and the right place to be.
You are right Blonde Logic, I hope that my mistake will help others, and I am glad that you feel strong enough to see it through to the end. I have promised myself that I will do the journey correctly this time, especially the Management stage, which, from listening to others, seems to be the key to success.
I will attempt to post some pictures of my previous journey. I love, and hate looking at them, a real mixture of feelings, although looking back, the previous journey, didn't seem to last so long, and I keep telling myself, that it is just a few months out of my life to get to where I need to be for happiness.
I intend to get married as soon as I am at my goal weight. I have lived with the man of my dreams for the past 12 years, and I can't bear the thought of being a fat bride, and the centre of attention. Over the last year I have been trying to persuade him to go away and marry in secret, but he wants friends and family to share in our happiness. I understand how he feels, but he doesn't understand how I feel!
Thank you all once more for your support, it is just brill.
