ok now this is the second time writing this,as i went to deleat something and i pushed the wrong button doh!
well i'm not sure if i'm doing this right,and please forgive me in advance for the selfish "oh poor me" but i guess i need to get that out of the way,
i'm fed up with the lack of self control,i mean what gives,i can tell the kids no,but me...ohhhhhhhhh nooo i get my hubby to got to tesco and "get me the usual"then sit in my room and blah,blah you know where i'm going with that !
what's wrong with my mind,would hypnotherapy work/help.
i start off with all good intentions,begining to enjoy the benifits then it's almost like i have to sabotarge(sp)what i've done ? why do that ?
i don't understand.
i can't go another summer of wearing a jacket i really can't,this week has been so lovely and warm,i almost feel fear of whats to come,but it's not enough if you know what i mean........i feel like i want to go to somewhere like solatary confinement where there are no carby foods,then i wouldn't be able to eat them,but why so drastic,i've tried different diets,lighter life,cambrage,sacred heart,lost the weight, enjoyed the feeling that comes with slimsville...then it goes out the window,and i go back to wearing black,
"oh darling wearing black for a change"
and try to melt into my jeans,and disguise the muffin top with baggy jumpers,that make me look bigger.
am i trying to make excuses because i'm unhappy,poor selfimage,and all the rest of it,am i using this as another "see i new you couln't do it" put yourself down excuse ?
gosh,i'm getting on my own nerves.
please santa,i would like to get out of bed in the morning and think ooooo i'm going to look nice in that today.
where am i going wrong. ?
any cd's or anything like that anyone thinks work ?
well thankie if you managed to get to the end of my ramble.
if you dare to come back,hopefully i'll be a bit brighter.
i'm going shopping today,and i'm going to get the stuff in that i need otherwise tonight the takeway menue will come out and i shall devour a cripsy aromatic duck!
i'm actually craving some Walls linconshire sausages or even the cumberland ones,guess i'll go have a couple off eggs.....
ok lainey....press the button and commit to showing everyone what i've done and what i'm thinking....
gosh i feel like a little kid.....123 goooo