After a couple of days of obsessively reading through lots of diaries I have decided to start my own!!!
My name is meg, I have just turned 38, and I weigh 24stone8lbs! Can't believe I said that out loud. Sadly I can believe I weigh that amount. I am a compulsive eater, I eat when I am happy, sad, lonely, excited, nervous, any emotion you name it i eat!
4 weeks ago my husband of 17 years sat me down and informed me he no longer loved me. He blamed the weight, and the fact he did not find me attractive anymore. He pack a suitcase with me promising to diet, stop eating, get a gastric band anything to keep him. He left.
The next few days where a blur, long phone call in tears etc etc, I had not slept I felt dreadful. Our 15 year old son was upset one night, I assumed as he was missing his dad, but nope he was upset as he had no clue how to handle me. So mother instincts crept in and I womaned up. Booked an appointment with my gp, and decided to get some help.
V nervous with seeing my gp, he is older seems disinterested, not once even mentioned my weight! Well that day (lucky for me) I was informed I was now a patient of the new partner, in I goes ready to sob about my husband leaving, ask for medication, and leave. I started off mentioning husband and the bugger was interested!!! This threw me, so I started telling him about how he blamed my weight, which lead to me talking for the next 15 mins how bad I felt with weighing as much as I did. At he end my new rather amazing gp smiled and said I think you are coping with the hubbie leaving, you only mentioned him twice, but you mentioned how fat you at least 20 times!!!! And there lies the problem.
You see I am upset the husband has left me, even more so when I found out he was having an affair!! But my biggest fear was not losing him the person, but losing company, security, a man who I thought loved me even though I am massive.
So back to the gp after bloods done - shows I have some hormonal imbalance, private scan - shows I have pcos (how insane is this I was pleased! Thought I could finally have an excuse for weighing this much!) anyway amazing gp sits me down, warns me I am killing myself with food, states my body has gone into meltdown, and I need to do something now! With a smile he told me about Atkins..................
I start this way of eating on august the 19th, I am away for 2 weeks Friday, booked a cottage in north Wales on the beach, so that 2 weeks I am going to read read and reread all I need to know, I will be looking at every aspect of this way of eating to prepare myself. I will be reading through your diaries, getting tips and inspiration. The 19th I have my first appointment with a councillor to address my eating issues, and will be weighted, with my gp support its Atkins from then on!,,
I apologise for the length of this post, and the rambling nature xxxxxxxxx excited to begin a new journey x