Jonsgirl80
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Hi I'm jonsgirl, just turned 33, mummy of a beautiful boy and married to Jon (obviously lol)
returning to Atkins for the second time - I lost just over two stone in 2011 for my wedding and got down to 11 stone. Two years of married "bliss", takeaways, evenings out and weekends away have seen my weight climb to around the 14 stone mark which is the heaviest I have ever been.
I've always been over weight and over the years I've flirted with slimming world (gained weight!!!) Dukan (fab for two weeks and then soooooo boring) and the 5:2 diet (ate everything in sight on the "up" days and kept putting off the "down" days. - again lasted two weeks)
fast forward to June this year when all my excesses of the past two years come back to haunt me and I'm brought down to earth with a massive bump, sitting in the office of a fertility specialist where we have come to find out why we can't seem to have our much longed for second child after two years of trying. All of my friends are getting pregnant and having babies and we just assumed it would happen but every month we are disappointed and we get more and more depressed that it hasn't happened for us yet.
He tells us quite abruptly that it's not going to happen for us at all and we will need to look at IVF.
" ok" we say " let's get on with it"
"ah not so fast - you have a child already so you will need to go private"
again, ok, not ideal but luckily we can manage to fund it so we are much luckier than some people.
haha of course it's not that simple. He looks me up and down then he weighs me and tells me I need a reality check and I am seriously obese and need to loose a significant amount of weight - thanks
my BMI is up near 37 and because of my age and our problems he wants me to get it down to 30 before he will proceed.
Generally they only require a BMI of 30 for the nhs patients and for the private they allow you to be up to BMI of 35. for that reason i don't think its fair that he's asking me to get down to 30 but he says our problem is severe that if i don't there would be no point going ahead as it just wouldn't work and we'd be wasting our money. plus I think they want to keep their success rates up.
ok I say - I will do it and he gives me a look that says " yeah right, I've heard it all before"
so here we are.
I was devastated at what he said but actually he did me a massive favour. Firstly because i needed to hear it. (i am fat no getting away from it - my hubby tells me he likes me curvy and he loves me no matter what size i am which is lovely but it's not helping me - brutal honesty is what i need.)
But most importantly it was that look the specialist gave me that was enough to spur me into action because, if nothing else, I am determined to prove I can do it. To march into his office next time significantly lighter and thinner and say "I told you I would do it"
I decided to go back to Atkins because I know it works for me and, more importantly, it works quick which is what I need.
So I am two weeks in and 12 1/4 lbs down - now tipping the scales at 13 stone and 1/4 pound - blooming quarter of a pound I wish it would clear off!
anyway I've never written a diary before because I always feel that what I've got to say isn't really that interesting ( I lead quite a boring life lol ) I'm not sure whether anyone will read it and that's fine because writing it will help keep me focused on how far I've come and what I still need to do.
so, that's it I guess. Fingers crossed for me that it works as well as last time because I'm determined to succeed and I now have the best reason in the world to be motivated
returning to Atkins for the second time - I lost just over two stone in 2011 for my wedding and got down to 11 stone. Two years of married "bliss", takeaways, evenings out and weekends away have seen my weight climb to around the 14 stone mark which is the heaviest I have ever been.
I've always been over weight and over the years I've flirted with slimming world (gained weight!!!) Dukan (fab for two weeks and then soooooo boring) and the 5:2 diet (ate everything in sight on the "up" days and kept putting off the "down" days. - again lasted two weeks)
fast forward to June this year when all my excesses of the past two years come back to haunt me and I'm brought down to earth with a massive bump, sitting in the office of a fertility specialist where we have come to find out why we can't seem to have our much longed for second child after two years of trying. All of my friends are getting pregnant and having babies and we just assumed it would happen but every month we are disappointed and we get more and more depressed that it hasn't happened for us yet.
He tells us quite abruptly that it's not going to happen for us at all and we will need to look at IVF.
" ok" we say " let's get on with it"
"ah not so fast - you have a child already so you will need to go private"
again, ok, not ideal but luckily we can manage to fund it so we are much luckier than some people.
haha of course it's not that simple. He looks me up and down then he weighs me and tells me I need a reality check and I am seriously obese and need to loose a significant amount of weight - thanks
my BMI is up near 37 and because of my age and our problems he wants me to get it down to 30 before he will proceed.
Generally they only require a BMI of 30 for the nhs patients and for the private they allow you to be up to BMI of 35. for that reason i don't think its fair that he's asking me to get down to 30 but he says our problem is severe that if i don't there would be no point going ahead as it just wouldn't work and we'd be wasting our money. plus I think they want to keep their success rates up.
ok I say - I will do it and he gives me a look that says " yeah right, I've heard it all before"
so here we are.
I was devastated at what he said but actually he did me a massive favour. Firstly because i needed to hear it. (i am fat no getting away from it - my hubby tells me he likes me curvy and he loves me no matter what size i am which is lovely but it's not helping me - brutal honesty is what i need.)
But most importantly it was that look the specialist gave me that was enough to spur me into action because, if nothing else, I am determined to prove I can do it. To march into his office next time significantly lighter and thinner and say "I told you I would do it"
I decided to go back to Atkins because I know it works for me and, more importantly, it works quick which is what I need.
So I am two weeks in and 12 1/4 lbs down - now tipping the scales at 13 stone and 1/4 pound - blooming quarter of a pound I wish it would clear off!
anyway I've never written a diary before because I always feel that what I've got to say isn't really that interesting ( I lead quite a boring life lol ) I'm not sure whether anyone will read it and that's fine because writing it will help keep me focused on how far I've come and what I still need to do.
so, that's it I guess. Fingers crossed for me that it works as well as last time because I'm determined to succeed and I now have the best reason in the world to be motivated
don't think my mahoossssive jar if tesco mayo would fit in my bag ;-)
