Me and my boyfriend who I live with ended up having quite a frank discussion last night about my dieting habits which mainly resolved around.

1- How I appear to myself

2- How others see me

3- Feeling like I have to look good for other people (this one got a bit heated)



1-How I appear to myself

When I look in the mirror I can honestly say I don't see much of a difference, same as when I see a picture of me know...

Thought its about time I started writing a bit of my journey down now I am finding it alot harder it might keep me in check??????
If anyone reads this then sorry for the way its gonna read am far to use to shorthand now and can't form to many sentences at a time.


BackGround Info on me....

Name- Gemma

Age- 23

Location- Near Portsmouth

Job- Admin but about to start training for a managerial position on a few of our online...

Weigh in : 10 stone 12.5
Loss 0.5 pounds
Total Loss 5 pounds
8.5 pounds until first target of 10 stone 4.

yesterday didn't go quite to plan but was still okay and I came in at about 900 cals
Had a couple of chips and two small bites of sausage as we had a meeting in the pub and by 5pm the temptation was too much.
Munched some fishsticks when I got home and had my soup and 2 bread at 10pm

I've been subconsiously picking through yesterday and today. Took a weigh-in this morning and realized I've lost about 2.8lbs.

Just don't think it'd be the same tomorrow though.

And I've been thinking, maybe if I stopped hating so much, if I just let go and forgive, things wouldn't be so bad anymore. Not just for everyone, but for me. I've been so resentful for the past few weeks because I just couldn't accept the fact that she'd gotten someone else. That I'd been passed...