Right, so now I'm back, I'm just going to share a few things that have happened in the last year.

My 30th birthday was fab, but by that point the weight had already started to creep back on. I felt a bit self-conscious, but managed to push it to the back of my mind for the night.

This is the biggest thing that happened to me in 2009. I met a boy!

For the past 10 years or so I've been hiding behind my fat. I built up huge walls to keep everyone at arms length....

I feel very sheepish. I have several confessions to make so here goes:

1. I let the weight creep back on
2. I've tried and tried to get back onto CD and failed at the first hurdle everytime.
3. I feel fat and frumpy again!!
4. I've completely lost the plot.

SO this is what I'm doing about it:

1. Talked to my CDC about how I feel (lots of tears on my part)
2. I'm doing SS+ to try and stick with it
3. I've talked...