I'm wondering if I should just go back to meetings instead of doing it alone. I've slipped into that 0ooh I've roughly stuck to my points thing that you can't get away with when someone else is weighing you. I've also quit smoking -last cig late thursday night -and I am really missing that crutch that was getting me through those horrible tricky in between meal times. God right now I don;t know what I want more -a cig or big mad blueberry muffin! Or better still -a blueberry muffin followed...

I will relax at Xmas -like I usually do and enjoy it. I love Christmas -all of it I really do -and if I get to my 10.5 stones I think I'll deserve a good oul' holiday. So my plan (already) is to eat sensibly -fill up as much as poss on fruit on veg (LOVE Xmas fruit n veg!!) and relax a bit in the evenings with some sweeties or drinkypoos. -also walking in the lovely crisp winter air!! so.. my next mini goals would be
4th -get back to 10 and a half stone lol -lets face it folks -I WILL gain....

I don't know how to set up a mini goal ma bobby on my profile so I'll just blog it.

1st mini goal:To lose a stone (be 13st)by 3/9/08 when I go to Paris!!-(8+ weeks away)
2nd:to lose a further 21 lbs (11st 7lbs)by Hallowe'en (16+ weeks away)
3rd: to lose another 14 lbs by xmas -
which would take me to 10 and a half stone by Xmas. OOOOOHH I would LOVE IT!!!

BRRRING IT AWWNN!!

I am now trying to do weight watchers. I had got to 12.5 stones with cd and lipotrim but am now at 14 st -my biggest ever and am feeling really really crap about myself. I cannot afford to go on like this its getting truly ridiculous. So -not being willing or indeed able to give up eating completely I have to accept that I must do it slowly and gradually. I must just be patient and wait it out for results and believe that I will lose weight is I just keep going. I have to just keep at it. ...

well, there's no forum here for my wee diet so I'll just post to my blog whilst keepin an eye on all my lovely lipotrimmers and cd'ers. Day 4 of celebrity slim and am finding it relatively pain free. Not craving, not hungry and feeling lighter! I miss the urgency of CD/lipotrim if I'm honest but I just know that for right now I don't have it in me to cut out food completely. i think once I've finished uni in May (after a couple of days of celebrating) I'll do CD to shift as much as I can by...