meant to update this yesterday but managed to download a virus and messed up lappy! think its finished now.
did a full day SSing yesterday and found it really hard. ended up at home alone yesterday evening and the tescos delivery arrived and i had to put it away on my own. there was £100 worth of the yummiest food and i was shakin with the effort of putting it away and not eating it. the tears were rolling down my face as i was doing it, feeling so sorry for myself. am a bit ashamed now as...

Well ive been giving off for a while on the daily about how my heads been all over the place. Think TOTM is looming which is a part of it, also my placement is manic busy and i was starting to wonder if i was cut out to be a social worker. As its only a placement im not being paid, and because im so busy with the placement work as well as the academic work i need to do to finish the course, i havent got time to have a paying job and i havent got a student loan. so i have no money at present and...

Well ive been giving off for a while on the daily about how my heads been all over the place. Think TOTM is looming which is a part of it, also my placement is manic busy and i was starting to wonder if i was cut out to be a social worker. As its only a placement im not being paid, and because im so busy with the placement work as well as the academic work i need to do to finish the course, i havent got time to have a paying job and i havent got a student loan. so i have no money at present and...

well had a crap day food-wise. had a good talk with the amazing HM and shes given details about the changes that are being made to SSing, so am hoping to start it tomorrow, using the 4 packs a day and 200ml skinned milk plan. only problem is how im going to have a pack at work without having to explain to everyone why im not eating. have only started the job and am still not comfortable enough to be able to tell everyone bout CD and SSing. anyone got any ideas?

messed up the diet big style. no one to blame but myself, and plenty of that going on.

think its affected my sleep too, as i cant seem to get enough sleep and am constantly tired. i keep falling asleep at work and had to cancel my meeting with cdc for tonite as it would mean an extra hour and a halfs driving and i was kinda worried bout falling asleep at the wheel. thankfully im off work tomorrow so intend to get a good lie in. also intend to get back on the wagon again...