Lesson learned
Posted 28th June, 2009 at 10:37 PM by drbetteridge
I should really be upset with myself this weekend, but I'm not.
I've done so well on Slim Fast, not cheating-and better still not feeling deprived. So when my friend called and asked if she could come down from Wakefield for the weekend, I said sure. My friend and I are exact opposites, except that she too has a weight problem. A very severe, unmanaged weight problem. Anyway, slipping back into bad habits I thought "I've done so well I deserve to have fun (eat) while she is here." We met in Oxford- I had Slim Fast for breakfast, and found a Pizza Hut while waiting for her train to come in. We stopped in Cirencester for fish and chips for dinner. Had strawberries and cream for dessert. I was beyond full after a day of eating out. Saturday morning I had Slim Fast because I was still so full from the day before. I was uncomfortable enough that I thought I wouldn't cheat. But as lunch rolled around, we went to a nice restaurant. I tried to be sensible and so ordered a ham sandwich. But they had onion rings, which I hadn't had in about 3 years- and they are my favourite. So I ordered them too. When my friend's starter arrived she asked me to help her eat it. It was an incredibly delicious chunk of goat cheese topped with chorizo sausage and carmelised onion marmalade- all on a bit of toasted granary bread. It was to die for. And I did eat about a third of it. When we finally left, we walked the high street which is full of bakeries. I resisted the first two that my friend bought from, but by the time we hit the third I just had to try a caramel shortbread and a large coffee. My stomach had bloated out from so much gas that I kid you not, I looked about 5 months pregnant. I was getting very sick and miserable. All I wanted was for my friend to go home and let me off the hook. (No, I know it was my own fault.) I had no dinner last night. I couldn't wait for this morning when I could get back to Slim Fast and away from food. So back on, I had my 2 shakes a snack and as the advert goes- "a sensible dinner."
Lesson learned. Some of the bad habits I have had for a life time are starting to be overcome. I thought I wanted the pizza, and other stuff I ate, but in the back of my mind I knew I was only eating out of comfort. I didn't really crave it. If I hadn't been feeling a bit wild and free away from hubby and home, I wouldn't have wanted it enough to buy it. Lesson two: I was enjoying the feeling of a flatter stomach that wasn't uncomfortably bloated, as had been usual up to the start of Slim Fast. It really hurt to the point that I couldn't walk and just wanted to go to bed till it stopped hurting. Lesson three: wasn't hungry when I was eating. On Slim Fast I had finally learned what it felt like to slowly become hungry and not to eat until then.
This weekend was awful, and at the same time I have never felt so strong and in control of myself.
I've done so well on Slim Fast, not cheating-and better still not feeling deprived. So when my friend called and asked if she could come down from Wakefield for the weekend, I said sure. My friend and I are exact opposites, except that she too has a weight problem. A very severe, unmanaged weight problem. Anyway, slipping back into bad habits I thought "I've done so well I deserve to have fun (eat) while she is here." We met in Oxford- I had Slim Fast for breakfast, and found a Pizza Hut while waiting for her train to come in. We stopped in Cirencester for fish and chips for dinner. Had strawberries and cream for dessert. I was beyond full after a day of eating out. Saturday morning I had Slim Fast because I was still so full from the day before. I was uncomfortable enough that I thought I wouldn't cheat. But as lunch rolled around, we went to a nice restaurant. I tried to be sensible and so ordered a ham sandwich. But they had onion rings, which I hadn't had in about 3 years- and they are my favourite. So I ordered them too. When my friend's starter arrived she asked me to help her eat it. It was an incredibly delicious chunk of goat cheese topped with chorizo sausage and carmelised onion marmalade- all on a bit of toasted granary bread. It was to die for. And I did eat about a third of it. When we finally left, we walked the high street which is full of bakeries. I resisted the first two that my friend bought from, but by the time we hit the third I just had to try a caramel shortbread and a large coffee. My stomach had bloated out from so much gas that I kid you not, I looked about 5 months pregnant. I was getting very sick and miserable. All I wanted was for my friend to go home and let me off the hook. (No, I know it was my own fault.) I had no dinner last night. I couldn't wait for this morning when I could get back to Slim Fast and away from food. So back on, I had my 2 shakes a snack and as the advert goes- "a sensible dinner."
Lesson learned. Some of the bad habits I have had for a life time are starting to be overcome. I thought I wanted the pizza, and other stuff I ate, but in the back of my mind I knew I was only eating out of comfort. I didn't really crave it. If I hadn't been feeling a bit wild and free away from hubby and home, I wouldn't have wanted it enough to buy it. Lesson two: I was enjoying the feeling of a flatter stomach that wasn't uncomfortably bloated, as had been usual up to the start of Slim Fast. It really hurt to the point that I couldn't walk and just wanted to go to bed till it stopped hurting. Lesson three: wasn't hungry when I was eating. On Slim Fast I had finally learned what it felt like to slowly become hungry and not to eat until then.
This weekend was awful, and at the same time I have never felt so strong and in control of myself.
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