Well what a day. How I never cheated I just dont know. Received a communication telling me/us members of an association that we were being closed down by the main body. The thing is we run the Association for nothing, running events for members etc, we dont charge any expenses, made the money. But do we get thanks no we just get a crappy letter telling us that we have not conformed to the Articles of the association. Do the governing body tell us what we have done wrong beforehand, give us guidance,...

Well here we are done my 100 days and lost 3st 3lbs. Look and feel amazing to what I did b4 I started, but in reality I still have 5 stone to lose to get to a good BMI.

So what the bloody hell am I doing. Why can I not finish one thing in my life. Now I am mucking around and yesterday did the biggest sabotage ever, its like deliberate.

Do I want to be slim, perhaps I dont. But I do, so what is the big voice in my head that is stopping me. I need to get in touch with this...

Well been on LL for 10 weeks now doing well with weight loss, but today was really bad as daughter playing me up again. Was totally devasted this morning over a row we had, which now all over seems absolutely stupid that we can get so worked up over it. Its all sorted now but left me feeling really tired and headachey. Done my best to be good, which has amazed me as apart from a lick of a spoon managed it.

This week has been trying and I have been annoyed with silly picking. Nothing...

Not feeling too good today, a bit weepy. A few things going on at home that I dont like, but I havnt succumb to food like I used to.

Well carrying on from yesterday, I going to say it again to get it into my head.

I dont need food for company, I can have company without food.

Dont feel like writing much as mo so will leave til if feel better and honest.

I have been a naughty girl this week and I am finding that the more I abstain the more upset I can get.

It was Lifeline week and I immediately got upset as I knew there were things that I didnt want to think of. Its funny but this never happened when I was stuffing my head off, I used to able to cope with all sorts of rubbish, but am feeling very vunerable at the moment.

I realise that now is the time to start facing these issues as if I want to succeed I cannot...