WHOA

So, it's just occured to me that I haven't written a blog entry for over a fortnight now!

So here's a fresh one.


I'm now coming up on 5 weeks of LL being done, and my goal of losing 2stone in 5weeks has played out great, and actually, I think I've done it already; I had to lose another 3lbs to hit 28lbs total, and that was since last Friday. I reckon that a loss of 3lbs over the last 6days is quite feasible, I certianly will be dissapointed if I haven't lost the 3lbs when I have my WI on Friday, but so long as the scales go down, it's all good.


These last 5 weeks have really enabled me to learn a lot about myself, not just my eating habits, but all kinds of aspects of my life have been given serious thought in a way that I've never done before.

I feel like such a different person already, as though the negative layers of my personality are peeling away along with the physical layers of me, it's quite amazing, I have to keep reminding myself that I am actually still me!

It almost makes me laugh at myself when I now look back at how I was living my life before, the hiding away in my room, the secret eating, the coming up with excuses not to do social things, the hating whatever I was wearing, and the denial at the size I really was. Sitting here now, I can't truely comprehend why I didn't decide to do something about it sooner, but hey, I guess I just wasn't ready.

The comments from my family and my group have been so encouraging, not to mention the wonderful comments and help from so many people on here as has been my own changing perception of myself - the weekly photo's I have been doing really show me the change, even though I often struggle to see it when looking at myself during the day.

My group and my immediate family are still the only people who know I am doing LL, my friends and extended family are going to find out at Chirstmas, when the see the difference they're going to be so suprised, and I think at that point I'll be dying to tell at least some of them about my proud achievements (I hope).

The LL group I have is so good, 5 of us guys, 1 of whom coincidently lives about 2minutes from my house and gives me lifts to and from the meetings and although it's not really the right attitude to have, being the lightest one in my group gives me such a buzz each week, it's so so rare that I am ever *not* the biggest one in the room, I love it, and it's just another thing that keeps me going as I know that sometime soon, I can feel that way about whatever room I walk into.

Right, well, blog over, I have to get up now as my bum hurts from sitting down for a bit too long - there's quite a bit less padding than I had before, I might have to buy a cushion or two!