Well today I found out that my funding has been approved at first I was over the moon. This lasted for all of 10 mins, the feeling of oh **** what have i got myself into now sprung into my mind. I know why i am doing this and full y understand the whys and the wherefores of this op its just its such a life changing experience how will i cope, what if something goes wrong, what if i die, what if it deosnt work the list of what ifs are endlesss.
In a way i was hoping funding wasn't going to be as straight forward as it has been because then the dcission to not have the op would have been taken away from me.

Before you all start gasping and foaming at the mouth, this didnt last very long. I know my relationship with food is a complex one (and not up for disscussion on here) and one that I am going to miss, but I can't keep going on like this I am 34years old, have arthritus in my back on incapacity benefit and don't want to be here i want to be at work and no one will take my back seriously while i am this weight as there is mixed opinion on the cause of my back problem, weight being one of them.

So heres to anew year and a new me, heres to wearing the type of clothes I want to, being able to play with my 2 beautiful girls.

So my next post will be when I have some news fro you all probably when I have my scan on my gall bladder on news years eve.

tatta for now.