THis is the first time ive really said why Im fat to anyone..
I used to be a slim size 12/14 and then met my ex, he was a control freak and I ended up in an abusive relationship. So for 5 years I was called mrs blooby and lardy, even tho I wasn't, so to compensate that i was being told I was fat I became fat, started wearing baggy clothes and eating as I was soooooooo unhappy. I went from size 14 to a size 20 in 4 years. even after I left it still piled on and 16 stone I was fat, depressed and so far away from myself I had no idea how to get back,
Its taken 2 years of counselling to get everything out of my head. I woke up one morning 2 1/2 years ago and thought "who are you" when I looked in the mirror. So i had a year of personal training and lost 1 1/2 stone, put 1/2 back on and as from Jan 2012 am determined to loose 3 stone this year
Its the most positive thing I have ever done and now really love who I am becoming but the outside doesn't reflect the inner me so that's part of my reason of loosing weight. The other is that don't want to be fat and still wearing unflattering size 16 in my 40's or at my 40th BD party
That wasn't as hard as I thought
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