It's been a very long time since I've posted here... my weight loss journey continues..
There is something I've been meaning to ask and perhaps just let out?
Recently, I have gained weight (more so BUT am on the weight loss journey again) and you could say I'm not your conventional girl as in, I don't dress or look like most girls - I'm not comfortable with my body image, I have no self esteem at all and always tend to look away when someone speaks to me...
Where I work is very male dominated with a few women.. I have at times caught my self looking across the room and *thinking* a group of lads are and MUST be speaking about me, poking fun about my weight, the way I look and dress.. and this has driven me kind of mad!
I could have sworn today they were laughing very loud, and I am insistent it was about me... I really wish I knew how to get this out of my head, I mean the logical me says, they could have just been having a laugh like usual lads, and the emotional side of me says.. they were laughing at you...
I don't know what to do anymore! I know I've become a little crazy with all this but