Hi everyone.. I'm new here,
I know traditionally everyone posts in the new members section to introduce themselves, but I thought I'd just get started.
I need a bit (or a lot) of advise.. my story goes as follows.
I've been overweight most of my life but a few years ago I dropped 4 stones to reach my goal weight, since then I've piled it back on.
I'm 23 years old and I graduated from uni a few years back (same time as I lost all that weight) I found a job within my sector and started working straight away, since then I've found it destroyed my soul so I've now left, and it's coming up to a year I haven't worked.
Now, despite desperately seeking employment, and my savings depleting day by day.. I feel as if I'm stuck in a rut. This coupled with me being painfully shy because of my lack of self esteem (weight) results to people treating me badly, trying to speak to me like I'm a child and bossing me around. It almost happens on a daily basis, it can be something so simple, for example I went to the doctors recently and I went into the room not knowing it wasn't my turn yet, and the nurse shouted at me like and I just sat there going red in the face taking it all.. not a peep, these little things bother me a lot and I feel like a complete idiot for letting others talk like that to me - I dwell over past experiences and beat myself up then I wonder, what could I do to change this.. I also want to lose weight but I don't know where to start.
It just seems like a cycle I cannot break and my thoughts are all over the place at the moment..
I'm an aspiring teacher, because helping others gives me pleasure - but now I'm wondering if I would be able to fulfill that role without the kids eating me alive..
I don't know what I'm looking for I guess just some guidance on where to turn to or what to do really : (