Thread: I want to be a size 12! My JOurney begins now...4 & half stone to go :)

Hi Everyone!
Im Sadiah, 24 , Married and a proud MOm of 2...A 5 year old boy & 4 Year old Girl =] A little bit more about me...I have always been a bit chubby growing up as a teenager but i was happy and very comfortble in my Skin, staying around a curvy size 14. At 18 i got married to the love of my life and attempted to lose a bit of weight but i think i was still a size 14 but non the less very happy! Soon came 2 gorgeous babies of mine and i found myself very comfortble and enjoying life and two pregnancies later a little heavier... its only when i did LIghterlife after my second baby to lose two stone that my real weight problems began...in 2009- i joined Lighterlife and lost 2 stone and was back down to size 12/14 at 11 & half stone ( IM 5ft 6) and was very happy indeed! but unfourtnley i never learnt much abt how to control portion sizes or calories or nutrition once i was off plan and very quickly due to my own fault i gained all the weight plus ALOT more... and since then i havent been able to shift it.. i am now 16st. Size 18/20 and very very depressed about my apperance! I just now want to look good for myself for my kids for my husband..i want to feel my age and look in the mirror and be comfortble in my own skin! and not feel ashamed... after messing about so long and not being able to stick to anything for more than a day... i decided to come on here and start a diary... get support feom you lovely people and be accountable to myself and just dedicate myself to start a new me. A fitter healthier me to be the best mum i can be to my kids. So here i am.. on the verge of tears but determind to just pour my heart into this and into everything and in this diary...to get to my destination and enjoy the journey alog thw way!
i dis start off at 17st 7lbs and am now 16st through calorie counting but it was a very slow process because i hadnt stuck to it 101%...i was ill two weeks ago and managed to lose 3lbs and go down to 15st11lbs way hay... but i didnt commit once again and gained 3lbs so back upto 16st! *Sigh*
Well , I start tomorrow Tuesday 7th May on my calorie countig healthy lifestyle change to get to my target of 11st 6lbs! i have no target date as i really just want to focus on losing even if its a pound a week and not on how quickly its done because i want to be healthy for life and not a quick fix only to put it back on!
From tomorrow i will be doing calorie counting and using some tesco ultra slim shakes for breakky and lunch and three healthy 100 cal snacks , fruit, veg and a healthy dinner. so my calorie allowance is 1400 without excercise and upto 1600 cals if i excercise
Fingers crossed though peepz ! I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and i am hoping that they will prescribe me orlistat to help me with my weight loss! due to my weight i havent had a period since 2010!!!! So i am hoping the doctors take this serious!! :/ Shall update tomorrow!
i will try my best to update reguarly x x
Thank You peepz x x much loveeee Sadi xx

Also forgot to say that my intentions are to up my water to 1.5/2litres a day as i am rubbish at getting water down!! and to introduce excercise slowly but surely xx

I havent decided what my weigh in day will be, but as im off to docs tomorrow and start calorie counting in the morning - also i have tuesdays off from work ( I work in an After school club as a PLay assistant term time and have tuesdays off aswell as weekends and school holidays) i am most probabbly going to stick to tuesdays as a weigh in day x will confirm tomorrow... geshhhh its so hard being this weight and working with kids! Especially kids in year 6 or 8 + above age... they ask all sorts of questions and add nice comments such as " Sadia why is your tummy so big are you having a baby???" Yessss its like being in Primary school again!!!! :-O i was mortified... these are just one of many comments! i brush it off though . they r jus small but i am soooo depressed abt my weight. I HAVE to do thissss just want to feel in control ! and feel good! lets hope the doctor agrees tomorrow x Goodnight for now xx

Hey huni! Good luck with it all. Slow and steady definately wins the race...! X

Thank You Hun! Yes thats just it x im focusing on getting to target rather than how long jt takes x defo makes it feel more duable that way too! xx

Well update * I got the orlistat!!! on Prescription!!!* Woooooo! So excited! I have decided tomorrow i will start fresh nice and early and take my first dose of orlistat and a calorie allowance of 1600. I am super duper excited!! =D i have a massive smile and am beaming along with the sun!! :-) The doctor has said to me to weigh in each month with her and then she can prescribe me more orlistat. So next weigh in at doctors is 7th June! IN the mean time shes also reffered me to a dietician! So i am now well and truly in the zone!!!!

That's great you are getting on track and will have the advice of a dietician etc on your side . I have a similar story to yours in that I lost weight with the Cambridge Diet then after I stopped I piled all the weight I'd lost back on plus some more to boot! Good luck with it all, look forward to reading more about your weight loss journey x

Originally Posted by Lady_Amalthea

That's great you are getting on track and will have the advice of a dietician etc on your side . I have a similar story to yours in that I lost weight with the Cambridge Diet then after I stopped I piled all the weight I'd lost back on plus some more to boot! Good luck with it all, look forward to reading more about your weight loss journey x

Awwwwwww thank you x
Yes thats just it the vlcds didnt really teach us anything.. it may work for some but for me i was just left a bit lost when it came to maintainence . i had no clue what i should or shouldnt eat. The dietician is a good support so that when j am off orlistat atleast i have a dietician to go to to help me still, thing js ive tried sw and things like that but ir doesnt help me being in a big group :/ i need one to one personal support. . thinking of joining the gym but will start that sometime next month x ive got a home excercise bike and a heart rate monitor to use in the meantime xx I hope that you get on well with your weight loss journey too x what approach ru taking to lose the weight xx very best of luck x we can spur each ither on

It totally is the maintenance stage that ******* me up! Right now I am calorie counting (aiming for 1,400 a day) but also making sure those calories are not made up of junk food haha. I've lost over 2 stone but it's been a slow process - I started in September but didn't really get right on the ball with it til November. I've upped my water intake to 2 litres a day, which I struggle with sometimes but it has improved! And until a few days ago my sole source of exercising was Dance Central for half an hour each day plus some walking! But now I am doing the 30 Day Shred too!x

Great news and glad to see you all pumped up with enthusiasm!! It DOES work and u CAN do it!!

Originally Posted by LadyJo

Great news and glad to see you all pumped up with enthusiasm!! It DOES work and u CAN do it!!

Thank u hunnnnn xxx glad to see ur little girl is all well now too xx

Originally Posted by Lady_Amalthea

It totally is the maintenance stage that ******* me up! Right now I am calorie counting (aiming for 1,400 a day) but also making sure those calories are not made up of junk food haha. I've lost over 2 stone but it's been a slow process - I started in September but didn't really get right on the ball with it til November. I've upped my water intake to 2 litres a day, which I struggle with sometimes but it has improved! And until a few days ago my sole source of exercising was Dance Central for half an hour each day plus some walking! But now I am doing the 30 Day Shred too!x

urghhh so right! maintainence!!
well doneeee on your two stone loss! I must say you sound so muh like me!! i started September too and wasnt really in the zone a hundred percent bur slowly lost 2 stone from beinf on and off plan. Its only now that summer is here and once again i have no clothes that fit or the clothes i want to wear that fit lets say! that made me realise i am not happy with myself why o why didnt i take this serious before and commit! but you no what we r humans and its obnly natural to fall off the wagon or go over at times x aslong as we r headinf the right way and have taken the step then we r well on our way! How are you getting on with 1400 cals? I am starting on 1640 with excercise x

Hi Sadiah, just wanted to wish you luck on your journey

It's great you have the support of your doctor
I'm the same, i hate not being able to wear clothes i want like short dresses during the summer i have to wear leggings cus i feel my legs are too fat! and when i go on holiday i won't wear a bikini anymore! ive tried a few different diets in the past, i did calorie counting when i was 17 and the weight fell off me! so i'm hoping for same to happen this time lol

Good luck

Originally Posted by spudnik

Hi Sadiah, just wanted to wish you luck on your journey

It's great you have the support of your doctor
I'm the same, i hate not being able to wear clothes i want like short dresses during the summer i have to wear leggings cus i feel my legs are too fat! and when i go on holiday i won't wear a bikini anymore! ive tried a few different diets in the past, i did calorie counting when i was 17 and the weight fell off me! so i'm hoping for same to happen this time lol

Good luck

Aw thanks hun x
ans Gooood luck to you!! :-) I am sure the weight will fall off now too! Lets dooo this!!

Just adding a note to my diary that the only reason im using slim and save products as two meal replacement products for the day and lunch - is because i spent 80 quid on two weeks worth of it and dont want to waste them now so will just use them as a part of the day in a calorie controled diet. I am in. not at all trying to get jnto ketosos or do a vlcd, i will be stil doing 1600 cals, excercise and having a good hearty carbs meal for dinner with lots of fruit n veg!! I LOve my carbs... i cant give them up! this is why calorie counting is the way for meeee!

MY sons off school ill wih a high temprature. Theycalled me to come pick him up yesterday as he fell asleep in class with a high temprature, hes only 5..bless him so now hes been up all night gulping down water atleast a litre! had a long sleep though when he fibally dozzed off around 5 am..SO ive just woke up at 11 am....havent stayed in bed this long!

Right off to get my first shake with my first dose of orlistat taet ::O so nervous!!!! I will be 101% on this!! X