I'm really excited because I am going for my first weigh-in this evening.
I am now around 17 stone 10 lbs and am 5 ft 2' so as you can imagine, I look horrible. I have been wanting to lose weight for the longest time but it just has not happened yet I am 21 years old and I can't do anything that most 21 year olds do. I know that I wouldn't have the courage to leave my home if I didn't have to go to college. I hate going out and I am afraid that I will lose my friends as a result of always refusing to go out with them. My mum always says that at least I have a pretty face but I am sick of being the "pretty-faced" fat girl. The last time I went on a night out, my best friend and I were making our way from one bar to another and this guy goes past, looks and me, laughs and says "the biggest loser". I can't even explain how much that hurt me. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. I don't want to be that girl anymore. I want to be the confident girl that I once was a few years back. I don't want to be depressed anymore or crying in my room alone as a result of my weight.
So tonight, I am taking control and going for my first weigh-in. I am really excited but scared at the same time. I really want to succeed but I guess I just feel weak and feel like I don't have the will-power to do this diet but I still have hope. I have done lipotrim and similar diets in the past but have never stuck them out. I am sure this community will help me stay focused and I hope this is my time to shine. I look forward to sharing my journey with you guys.