Hi everyone, here I am back on here after a 4/5 year break, the heaviest I've ever been and feeling both miserable with myself and disgusted in equal measure. I'm seeing my local C.D. provider in an hour to hopefully make today a truly fresh start. I've done the diet before and was successful to a degree but have never followed it through to the end. I get no support at home, my partner moved in with me last June and as he actively likes a larger woman so I have treated it like a gift from the Gods and eaten to bursting point. He doesn't understand why I am so unhappy with myself, he says I'm perfect the way I am but I hate myself for allowing myself to get to this size. Am currently a smidge under 15 St and only 5'3 1/2 so every lb shows. Could really do with some support, some laughs, some tough love and stern words if needed, you can even kick my are if you think it will help. Because help ladies is what I need.