I'm beside myself....... I'm absolutely gutted. I'm angry and disappointed too!
And what I hear you ask is the reason for this charming mood I'm in? Well a week ago, I was flying, I had lost over 6st on sole source and with my goal at 7 st I was so proud of myself and happy out. Goal was in sight, just another month I told myself. I had planned to lose the full 7 st on sole source which would just bring me to BMI 25 and then lose perhaps another st or so while maintaining.
Well last week I fainted, I have been suffering from low blood pressure (I was initially pleased with this as previously it would have been high!). And eversince family, friends and work colleagues jumped on the CD "bad for you" bandwagon. If I hear "I hope you're going to give up on this stupid diet thing" again I swear I won't be responsible for my actions! They were all previously so supportive. My family immediately started cramming food down my throat. At the time in fairness I think it was the best thing as I was in shock and smacked my head and ribs quite badly in the fall.
Anyway CDC reckoned I should listen to my body and work up the plans immediately. Now don't get me wrong, the sensible, rational, sane me knows that my health is more important and that I have done really well and should be proud of myself. And I am! But the insane, irrational me is just gutted. I'm not even at BMI 25. I just can't believe it. I know I can go back when I get the blood pressure thing sorted but I'm afraid I won't have the focus that I've had up to now.
Anyway, rant over. Thanks for reading, I feel better now that I've written it down, it seems more real and logical somehow.