It seems i really messed up.

[Dawnd]

Hey all i started the CD diet on 23/09/08 but that week it was a year since my best friend died i just could not get thru the day so i ate and boy did i eat. So when i went to get weighed last weeek i had still lost 2 n half pound which i was shocked and surprised by, determed to carry on i live my CDC feeling i can do this, until last week just the day after seeing my CDC i had a fall ended up in hospital wiv sligh concustion while there they wouldnt let me do CD and since coming out i am on such strong pain killers for a shoulder injury that the doc wants me to eat prior to taking them.
So i emailed my CDC to explain and missed weight, but now what?

Is it that i am destine never to lose this weight?
I am now having doubts over the whole thing.

[soontobelittlegem]

sound like you just had an unlucky start. get better and then focus on CD. you will do it! x

[MunchMarie]

so sorry that you have had such a hard time if it were me i think i'd forget i'd already started and wait for the meds to finish then start fresh with the original mindset you had. why not write down all your reasons for starting this diet, your goals etc in fact why not start a blog - i've found that it really helps me. just remember that as hard as this diet seems at the beginning after a week you think 'wow this is easy!' i promise you that you will feel a million times better on cd than yoou do right now x good luck

[Dawnd]

I seem to fail at everything i try and keep asking myself is this me failing again. My husband tells me i am doing great and he knows how bad i want this even when i am eating for the sake of these meds i don't want to be eating
I am just glad my kids are to young to understand why there mummy seems to of lost the plot a lil

[misscheeky]

aww dont say that you fail at everything. im sure thats not true. you have kids i bet your a great mum no one can fail at that i agree with adele finish the meds, head back to your cdc have a chat get weighed and start back. i know its not easy but once those 1st few days are over you time will fly and you will be dropping dress sizes before you know it come on here aswell for support xxx

[MunchMarie]

Originally Posted by Dawnd

I seem to fail at everything i try and keep asking myself is this me failing again. My husband tells me i am doing great and he knows how bad i want this even when i am eating for the sake of these meds i don't want to be eating
I am just glad my kids are to young to understand why there mummy seems to of lost the plot a lil

oh hon you sound so sad xx have you tried reading the 'bring you head inside' forum - it may help a bit. keep posting on here and we will all try to cheer you up. how long have you got to stay on the meds? you haven't failed - you havent started yet! get your date sorted for when you can start cd and start getting excited about your new adventure. hope you start feeling better soon x

[soontobelittlegem]

becky is right.

and you have to be positive. you cannot succeed on this diet unless you remain positive and focussed.

xxx

[Dawnd]

I am on the meds until the pain in my shoulder goes, They doc and the hospital both said it is musclar so i am hoping only another day or two, it has been like it since wednesday

[spooky]

What an awful time for you. Seems like it was probably not the wisest decision to start the diet when you did. I wonder if you have grieved properly for your friend?
Take some time for you and then look at CD with fresh eyes and a new determination to succeed. Your head has to be in the right place for this and you need a determination to succeed. I agree, you sound very down
Get well soon

[Dawnd]

I didn't not go to his funreal and never really said goodbye i still cling on to him (oh gosh how stupid do i sound)
Miss him dearly.
Then this stupid fall last week.
My mind set was ready at least i thought it was.
I really need to lose a min of 7stone the sooner the better i am fed up of buying clothes that fit instead of clothes i like, I am fed up of being to tired to run after my kids in the park. I have to change my life around while i am still young enough to do it

[spooky]

Originally Posted by Dawnd

I didn't not go to his funreal and never really said goodbye i still cling on to him (oh gosh how stupid do i sound)
Miss him dearly.
Then this stupid fall last week.
My mind set was ready at least i thought it was.
I really need to lose a min of 7stone the sooner the better i am fed up of buying clothes that fit instead of clothes i like, I am fed up of being to tired to run after my kids in the park. I have to change my life around while i am still young enough to do it

You don't sound stupid at all.
Keep posting for support, lots of us on here can help you through your CD journey. It may be worth talking to GP and getting a counselling referral to deal with your feelings.
Take care.

[Dawnd]

See i don't do feelings in person i can't openly tell friends/family or even the doctor things that trouble me.

[Bunnyg]

Dawn, you have had a tough time and it's not the easiest diet while getting started. You have to focus on yourself first, get yourself better and then you can get going. It won't be long. Just make sure you look after yourself and come and see us for support x

[Dawnd]

You are all very sweet, thank you. Oh and i love all ur wicked signtures and bits and counters i will ave to learn how to do all these