Thread: Chelsea's charge to Goal!!!! (And beyond)

Hi Lorrayne, Hope you can put the past wobbles behind you and move on you've done well and you are only human after all!! I can reccommend another gerat book i am reading it's called 'If you eat at the refridgerator...pull up a chair!' by Geneen Roth, really helped me sorted out some demons in my head about my negative attitude about myself and how important it is to be kind to yourself, that you are worthy of kindness and you are the best person to do it...plus it's quite funny in places so a great read.

Gutted about the Murray match it was truly nailbiting and put me on a real downer afterwards too! picked myself by remembering that it's only a tennis game, now i'm rooting for Roddick, how about you? Not that i don't think Federer is great but I always love the underdog, loved watching the Nadal win last year it was fantastic, hasn't been the same without him this year. Will watch the ladies final but heyho same old, same old eh!

Wishing you a fab day today!

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Morning everyone, Oh boy, what a weekend?!

My sister and I went to my daughter's to see her and the twins. My sis hadn't been able to get over to see them, so that was great. Bless my sis, she was so organised and had made sandwiches so that Laura wouldnt have to worry about fixing us lunch!! So I had a couple of triangles of Tuna & Sweetcorn and a banana. In the evening a friend came over and we walked into town to a Tapas Bar. Two champagne cocktails and a chicken salad later, we went back to mine and proceeded to get through three bottles of sparkling wine!!!

I 'came to' on Sunday morning covered in scratches and I mean covered. All over my body, arms, chest, throat. I vaguely remembered that I had tried to pick up my cat for a cuddle and she hates being picked up so she must have freaked out!!! What I hate is the fact that it is just a vague memory. I have not had a drink in the last 5 months, apart from a couple on my birthday, so it seems to have really affected me. I wasted the whole day yesterday feeling ill on the sofa.

I really didn't like how I felt and it has made me realise how much I don't miss alcohol and getting drunk. Food wise, tuna, lettuce, cous cous, tomato for dinner plus a choc shake (Jess still has some left).

Off to see CDC in a couple of hours and looking forward to going back to SS for a few weeks, in the hope that I can sort myself out. Hope you all have a great day xxx

Good luck with your cdc today, hope you can sort things out. Lorrayne I used to drink socially on weekend and have a glass or two during the week, cd has made me not really miss it anymore. I dont miss the feeling the next day. I have had a few nights where I have had a drink recently, I dont mind having one, but I am no longer in the mindset to go out and get drunk to be social, its a nice feeling.

Hi Chels... have to post & run because I am still working away & running out of net time, but so glad to see your thread... will catch up properly later in week. Hope you are in good fettle, and keep on keeping on!


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It was so nice to see Mandy again yesterday. My weight had stayed the same from when I last saw her, which is nothing short of miraculous considering...........we agreed that I should ss+ so that I am still having a little bit of food. Starting today - Tuesday.

Not a good start as up at 3:00am and ended up eating half a small tin of tuna as I felt so hungry which means there wont be a lot I can have for dinner tonight

Back at Laura's today, to give her a hand with the twins. Had loads of cuddles yesterday, which was fab. Cannot believe they are 7 weeks old today and weren't actually due until next Tuesday!!!!!

Hope you all have a great Tuesday xxx

Lou.... Excited to be meeting up with Ashley Jenkings after 36 years!!!! Roll on Thursday

Hi Lorrayne

I'm glad you had a positive chat with your CDC, even more so that you have STS - that's fab - and must have given you a boost aswell!

I really do have all my fingers and toes crossed for you to have a fantastic week this week, and I'm sure you will do.
I'm not sure what the Tuna allowance is for SS - but I know for 810 it is 2 tins, so it could well be that you have more left than you think? (sorry if I'm totally wrong, I haven't got my book to hand)

Hope you have a lovely day with your daughter and grandchildren - I bet they are tinyyy!!

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Glad to see your CDC is so good for you, hows it going today, I haven't actually lost anything yet this week, but we shall see tomorrow and WI whether I have or not... enjoy your day with your grand children, how great is it to hand them back at the end of the day.... lol

Chels have just read thru your diary, good for you being so honest and sticking with it, you will get there hon if you keep posting and keep on track. I'm glad you have the support of your CDC again, going it alone can be scary and trust me you are not the only one to find the whole food thing a challenge. It took us years to acquire all those bad habits so its not realistic to expect to ditch them overnight. But the books help, and CD helps, and WE can help each other - minis is just a lifesaver for me.

So hang on in there Chels, and send a hug to Jess as well!

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Hey Hun

How are you getting on back on SS+?
I hope you're doing ok and things are picking up for you.
You know this is just a journey, and whichever route we take, even if we stop for petrol, or an overnight break here and there, providing we keep in our head (and on the sat nav in my case) where we're going, we will get there, no matter how long it takes. xx

Where are you Chels?

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Hiya everyone,

Sorry I have not been posting on here for a while, I just needed a break from all things Cambridge and diets. It was starting to get quite obsessive - really messing with my head. I think, from having chats with Jess, she is feeling the same way. She could probably verbalise it better than I am though

I have decided that I will just eat healthily. Be more aware of what I am putting in my mouth. I am not going to be weighing and measuring but just aim to listen to my body. Pay attention to what it is telling me. Up the exercise and just basically try to live a normal and sustainable life and stay at a healthy weight. I am still 10lbs off the original goal weight I set for myself and I hope to just gradually work my way down.

I think CD has been great in terms of the quickness of weight loss but I have been panicking thinking that I couldnt do without it. Once food came back into it I couldn't cope and got scared of food. I thought that I would be spending my whole life on shakes and not being able to eat again. I need to prove to myself that I can make good food choices, cut down on my portion sizes and be in control!!!!! I can't be running back to CD everytime I gain a lb or two.

I will still be hanging around on here and keeping up to speed with all your stories. I just won't be obsessing like I was.

Love to you all xxxx

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Lorrayne, I know exactly what you mean about this diet, I think it really messes with your head big time and I argue with myself every day whether I should stick at 10 stone 5lb or still aim for my target as I feel I have failed if I dont, but 2 people lately have mentioned to me or a family member that I shouldn't lose anymore weight, but I guess people often say that.... so seem to spend my life fighting my inner self, not stressing to lose the weight now and am trying to be more relaxed, went to the gym to day and burned off 410 calories which once deducted from my 1000 plan doesn't leave too many so have decided to add a snack in mid morning and an apple in the afternoon to up my calories a bit, I seem to be playing with Cambridge now, but just dont seem to quite be able to let go just yet... well done for making that move and good luck with your food choices and maintenance.

Originally Posted by Greeneyes11

Lorrayne, I know exactly what you mean about this diet, I think it really messes with your head big time and I argue with myself every day whether I should stick at 10 stone 5lb or still aim for my target as I feel I have failed if I dont, but 2 people lately have mentioned to me or a family member that I shouldn't lose anymore weight, but I guess people often say that.... so seem to spend my life fighting my inner self, not stressing to lose the weight now and am trying to be more relaxed, went to the gym to day and burned off 410 calories which once deducted from my 1000 plan doesn't leave too many so have decided to add a snack in mid morning and an apple in the afternoon to up my calories a bit, I seem to be playing with Cambridge now, but just dont seem to quite be able to let go just yet... well done for making that move and good luck with your food choices and maintenance.

Sweetie, I had people weeks ago telling me I should stop losing the weight. Funny thing is, I am at the same weight and yet no-one is still saying it, which is bizarre. It is entirely up to how you feel as to whether or not you carry on losing weight. I still aim to get to the goal I set for myself but at a different pace and in a different way now.

Good luck to you - you look brilliant x

Lorrayne glad to see your back. I felt the same (pattern emerging, I think) that I could not do without CD. What if I put on, oh it's ok I will just go back on the shakes to shift it. Then again hang on, I will then have my carb hit and be back to square one.....unless I lose more before having the hit. It started to mess with my head. I still have days where I think, I know I will order some shakes to get off the 3 lb I put on. Really though whats a few lbs! CD is fantastic for the weight loss but when you get closer to goal it gets harder. I jumped ship too and am completely happy where I am and where Im going like you. I take my hat off to Katie, KD, sarena e.c.t who have worked up the plans properly but it's not for us all. You have done so well and look fantastic. Keep posting x

Thanks Triple. I know exactly where you are coming from and, like you, take my hat off to all the others that have gone right through it. It certainly isnt easy.

Right now I am panicking because I am 2lbs heavier than I was when I last went to my CDC. I am panicking because I have got it into my head that I can only lose it via the shakes instead of making good food choices. I obviously dont trust myself one iota - which is not good.

Instead of concentrating on the fact that I have lost 30lbs I am just seeing 'fat' again. The irony is when I first started CD and posting on minis all the weight-loss stories were such an inspiration to me, now they just make me feel that I am a failure!!!