Thread: Nikki in ??? IT STOPS NOW!

Oh Nikki you not a bad mum .. accidents happen hunnie, its normal to watch your lil one after a bump on the head.

I do that at school.. when the kids have fallen over etc.

these no harm in trialing the 2 weekly weigh in..i really hope u start to take all this pressure off yourself.

look forward to the future hun.. you have done so well, and we all know it.

Make sure u have an early night and get plenty of sleep. xx

You're not a cr@p mum Nikki, it's perfectly normal to feel like you do. Not that I know the first thing about parenting.

As for exercising on Thursday, if you can't get there make sure you're extra careful with you food intake and it'll balance out.

I don't think I'm all that great at bum kicking but I am always here xx

Here you are!! Why do I feel sad you've closed your old diary? Like a bereavement but so so happy fir you having 'graduated' to maintenance. You've been such a good friend and support to me. But I'll just have to come on here to find you!

I seriously don't know how you don't lose every week with the amount of exercise you do. But you'll be ok maintaining nikki. You're strong and sensible, so flipping stand up and finish what you started girl!!!

hi leeds

i'm glad i left enough trails so that my friends can find me.

i felt that i really needed to come here. i felt that by keeping my diary on the diary page that it was contributing to my struggle. i feel that this might help, a sort of graduation, a passage of right type thing. daft or what. i was going to write in both diaries but thought that it might get confusing. so i'm here. i really feel i need to be here too. i need to stand up and finish it off and this is one way i believe that i can do it, i can finish my struggles in one sense. i now need to feel like i belong like i did on the diary page, that i'm not an impostor.

i know that i've worked hard to get here and now need to keep going. i tell you maintenance is hard work. the diet is only the first part of the longer journey to finding yourself.

exercise, it might well be working against me in a sense but i can see my shape changing even more. i love my exercise. i really don't know how i ever coped with not doing it. i get really edgy when i don't do it. i get a real high when i do.

bed, i was supposed to be there about 22 mins ago.

right check on dude, check on emily and take her to the loo. night time potty training is going well.

a wee and a weigh for me and i might get a little beck's read before lights out.

Good night Nikki xx

Just wanted to quickly add that you said you've stayed around the same weight for the last 3 months. That sounds like maintaining to me! So what if you fluctuate a bit!

And you aren't a bad mum, I'm sure every mother on this planet with more than 1 child has 1 which they bond better with, it doesn't mean you love them any less or that they are treated any worse. Do you think maybe you're compensating dude for your parent and ems relationship? Just a thought?

I get on better and am closer to my day and my sister gets on better with my mum. Like anyone in life, you bond better with different individuals. It's nature, that doesn't mean you love em any less and don't have unconditional live for her . As well, you've had a really rough time with her this last year or so haven't you? With her toilet training etc.

Don't worry about Thursday, it will be good for you to break the habit once in a while, like you said you can up the exercise Wednesday and Friday to compensate.

Is there anything you can do with em to spend some you time together? They do a bambino zumba class down our way.

tuesday..... exercise day... whoop whoop whoop whoop. i can't wait. if i didn't have kids i'd be there right now. however, there's the school run to do etc.

focus day.

hunger is not an emergency after the gym i will scoff an apple to keep me going until i can get to proper food! really food, not cr*p!

today's plan....

brekkie - cd bar (not hungry and have eaten it) 175 cals
snack - apple 50 cals
lunch - quorn sarnie 300 cals
snack - apple 50 cals
tea - cottage cheese and salad 350 cals
cd product 140 cals

total from plan.... 1065 - giving me 135 left for another eat....

possible ideas:- yogurt, couple of baby bell cheeses if necessary, a few apples, or a banana - a snack of healthy food not cr*p!

focus on healthy eating, choosing the right thing and not rubbish. my body is a temple of goodness.... i need to worship it to help heal it.

Yay! Hope you have a great day!

Hope your little one is okay now, always scary when they hurt themselves but they are very resilient you know....... probably forgotten all about it now!! Have fun exercising and have a good day food wise xx

Back from exercise. Feeling great

Core stability
3.75 mile run (ran out of time)
Then an hr Zumba

Cals burnt:- 1001

Eaten:-
Cd bar 175
Quorn sarnie 300
Banana 80
Babybel 50 (r.t-605)
Dr pepper zero can
1pt water
1ltr water

Hey Hun, how's dudes head today? Hope he's ok bless him. And how's things going with you ? X

hi surf. things are going better for me. feel more focused and in charge of myself. experimenting with different food to fit with the cals etc

recap.....

Core stability
3.75 mile run (ran out of time)
Then an hr Zumba

Cals burnt:- 1001

Eaten:-
Cd bar 175
Quorn sarnie 300
Banana 80
Babybel 50 (r.t-605)
Dr pepper zero can
1pt water
1ltr water
1 pint of water
cd bar (had a 2nd cause i was desperate for choc - my own fault) 175
handful of choc buttons 100?
cottage cheese salad thing 350
apple 50 cals.

(cals aim is 1200 cals)
cals aprox eaten - 1280
cals burnt - 1001

forgot to inc an options hot choc, and milk. 1280+40+ 50 = 1370