Thread: Lost & Found... Map Gone AWOL!

Originally Posted by Katycakes

...Scales seem the same. (I am hoping for miracles... sigh!!!)
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Hi Katy, you are doing great hun! Glad you are feeling good about 1000 it's great isn't it! It took me quite a few weeks and a leap of faith in CD before i would accept that the scales weren't going to zoom right back up to where i started once eating more cals/carbs but the evidence is there every morning for me and i love it!

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Am loving all of the maintenance threads! Keep it up! x

your doing really well on 1000, i`m planning on moving up in 2 weeks, so am going to be pinching your menu ideas.
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Hmm, not sure my menu ideas would meet with CD approval, Buffy, but I am working on the basis that this is the real world & I have to make 1000 work for me, so I am doing my very best to adjust it for veggie-use! And have found I need more than a green salad in middle of day, so having CD porridge for brekky & my brekky 'meal' for lunch... I suppose it all evens out in the end as long as it adds up the same! Buffy, you are almost there... go, girl!!!

Lelly, am amazed that I can eat carbs and live to tell tale... I went a bit mad the first few days and put on two/three lbs maybe (my scale is unreliable) but the minute I started doing things properly I felt happier, 'safer' ie the carb hunger has calmed down again, and the weight has settled. The phantom extra lbs have gone and possibly another... I HOPE!!! I really need a decent scales though...

Sleepy, thanks for the thumbs up, feel like I am lurching my way up the steps blindfold, but at least I am moving in the right direction!

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Originally Posted by Katycakes

I am not at goal yet, so feel a bit of a fraud posting here, but I know I need to do something different to spur me through the last few steps of the journey if I am ever going to get there! I thought a diary for myself - but one that others can see & post on - would help me stay focused!

So here goes...

I have two and a half pounds to go until goal, I started my journey in November when I was at an all-time low and felt that not one part of my life was under control. I was at rock bottom. I feel so different now... I've come a long way in all kinds of ways.

Recently I read that you should be careful about saying you've 'lost' weight... in case the 'lost' weight comes back and finds you! So I haven't lost that 3 stone 8lbs, I have 'shed' it and I don't want it back, ever, thank you. I didn't lose the weight, I worked hard to shed it, but in the process found a few things I didn't expect....

I found an eating disorder I'd never owned up to before, a compulsive eating, binge-eat cloud that had hung over my life for 25 years or more. I cannot say I have 'lost' this yet, but I have been working on it since January and feel stronger and less controlled by it. And there have been no more binges since then, which is a minor miracle.

I found friends, supporters and role models on minis - strangers who reached out to help, to advise, to share, to be there. I could never have come so far without them.

I found that taking control of one part of my life has helped me to begin taking control of other areas, too. I realized I was the one making the choices, all along.

I have found appreciation and thankfulness for my lovely family, and for my friends who make me smile, who understand, who always care.

Hmmm. There's more than this, but that is enough to start with I guess! So scary to be posting on here, and scary to be on the 1000 step... it feels like a lot of food, and like it could all go pear-shaped (like me) at any minute. But CD has worked for me so far, and I am going to make sure it goes on working. Better go get some work done, but I'll be back later...

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Hello my dear!

A bit longer post now, don't really know what to write though so bear with me.

I'm really glad you started a diary here, it helps and it's a great place for support. So many people lurk around and post in your diary, makes you feel part of the community. I guess we find some of the people on this forum to be our bestest forumfriends *winks at Serena* and others to be good friends who really want to help out. It helps to be able to confess blips to someone whose opinion you value, not sure about you but I value everyone's opinion here!

Very proud of you for fessing up about the binging, takes a lot of guts and you did it. Realising you have a problem is the first step to fixing it, however cliche that sounds it proves to be quite true. I've had similar episodes and I can assure you it gets much better and easier. There will likely be rough times through maintenance as it introduces foods back you may have wanted for a while now. Most important part is to just keep going. I personally really don't think about food all day now, I used to, and its controlling my life so much less now!!!!

CD is the first of many steps, as shedding the weight really isn't the hardest part. Making sure it doesn't come back on, dealing with what lead you to binge etc... is a lot harder (or it is in my eyes!) but I know you can do it, you've come a long way and we will all be here to make sure you don't turn back!

Keep it up!!

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Aw, Lostris, thanks honey.

I have to say you and Serena are my heroes, ever since you posted on my Emotional Eating thread back in Jan I have been inspired by your kindness, support and empathy, as well of course as by your amazing achievements with CD. Whenever I have hit a bump in the road, you two have been there to make sure I was OK & help me get back on track. Words of encouragement or the chance to talk through difficult issues in confidence, those things have made all the difference to me.

And for me, travelling this journey has been made a little easier because two very brave travellers went ahead of me. Reading about your ups and downs has helped me to be more prepared for my own. Now I am on this forum, I feel like the end should be in sight, but as you say it is really just the beginning... still, I have come so far and I am not sad to leave behind the place I travelled from.

Gonna go before I get all snuffly, but big hugs to you & Serena and of course to the many other fab & lovely minis folk who have been here for me too.

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Originally Posted by Katycakes

Aw, Lostris, thanks honey.

I have to say you and Serena are my heroes, ever since you posted on my Emotional Eating thread back in Jan I have been inspired by your kindness, support and empathy, as well of course as by your amazing achievements with CD. Whenever I have hit a bump in the road, you two have been there to make sure I was OK & help me get back on track. Words of encouragement or the chance to talk through difficult issues in confidence, those things have made all the difference to me.

And for me, travelling this journey has been made a little easier because two very brave travellers went ahead of me. Reading about your ups and downs has helped me to be more prepared for my own. Now I am on this forum, I feel like the end should be in sight, but as you say it is really just the beginning... still, I have come so far and I am not sad to leave behind the place I travelled from.

Gonna go before I get all snuffly, but big hugs to you & Serena and of course to the many other fab & lovely minis folk who have been here for me too.

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Awwww honni! That made me tear up!!

It's so sweet how you feel about all this but please do remember we only treat you as you treat us which definately says something good about you eh

I was quite sad to see the EE (hihihi) thread disappear under the 'but I really, really, reaaally want the nachos!!!!! -rubble ()but I reckon there will be others like it. I think that thread has created a bond between us and it makes me want to check up on you. Yay for me for you making a diary, makes it so much easier to check up on you Not that it was any trouble before, just a few clicks and a few words and that was it really but this is good. I think many others will be inspired by your thread as there are SO many people feeling the same or dealing with the same issues.

My PM is always open, I hope you know that! So if you ever have less 'public' struggles, I'm more than willing to help you with those and I'd feel honoured if you feel I might be able to provide insight.

You've come to this forum and you won't leave, we will glue you to the doorpost to make sure of that. When times are rough remember to take baby steps and think about how far you've come, which is very, very far!


Keep it up, so proud of you xxx

Don't know what else to say, your post really moved me.

Big hugs, Miss Pink Jeans. I am glued to the doorpost, no worries!

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Thursday April 30th:

Brekky : CD porridge, blackberries & cinnamon
midmorning: coffee 'latte' with half a CD shake
lunch: slice wheaten bread with lo-fat cottage cheese & coffee 'latte' with half a CD shake
afternoon: planned cheat - small slice polenta & almond cake in town with friend
tea: quorn, aspargus, spinach & mushroom 'stew' (no carb as I used my carb 'allowance' on the polenta/almond cake!)

The polenta cake was my week's 'treat'... in my head it wasn't as bad as a regular cake as it was a/ planned; b/ handmade; c/ wheat-free; d/ made with ground almonds which KD says have miraculous carb-cancelling properties...

OK. She didn't EXACTLY say that... but that almonds eaten with something do 'help' somehow or something odd like that. And I LOVE almonds! So that cake must have been OK... no? No. Oh well. It will be my new fave cake I think from now on. And I have had no carbs with my tea by way of penance.

Can I ask a weird question?

Is it possible to be in mild ketosis on 1000? Not now, obviously, but pre-polenta cake, all week have had metallic taste in mouth and felt v. thirsty, and not as hungry as I was over weekend when eating more carbs than I should have been. I cannot check as I don't ever use ketostix, but it feels like it, and I wouldn't have thought that would be possible?

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Aww Katy having read through the last few posts I don't really know what to say. You've helped so many on here, me included of course, with your fabulous words of support and encouragement and I'm so pleased that Lostris and I (and others too) have helped to make your CD journey easier...ultimately though you are your own hero - don't ever forget that xx

As for the carbs/ketosis question I'm guessing probably not, but with the calorie levels involved and with still having 2 CD packs a day out of that amount you wouldn't exactly be OD-ing on the carbs anyway ;-)

Originally Posted by Katycakes

Can I ask a weird question?

Is it possible to be in mild ketosis on 1000?

Yes, it is possible. Anything under 100g of carbs can keep some people in ketosis

d/ made with ground almonds which KD says have miraculous carb-cancelling properties...

Wow thanks Katy and KD i will remember that. So almond cake is ok to eat lol...we wish

Big hugs, Serena. I just got all emotional earlier, still can't believe I made it this far. Anyway, not gonna get all slushy again, but... y'know... thanks!!! I just wanted you & Lostris to know how much you had helped & how much I appreciate it.

KD... woo... not sure if that is a good thing or a bad one! Good, I hope. But probably means 1200 is going to be a bigger challenge!

Trip... shhh... don't tell anyone about the cake... it's the secret CD polenta-cake-plan!

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Originally Posted by Katycakes

KD... woo... not sure if that is a good thing or a bad one! Good, I hope. But probably means 1200 is going to be a bigger challenge!

It's neither. It's just a 'state'. Is it good to be awake or asleep? Being asleep is easy. Few challenges, but little fun

If you were in ketosis, then coming out of it may feel like a challenge. Scary? or fun? You know a lot more now than you did before. You're stronger, hopefully more confident.

You get to practice doing the right thing and that is really empowering. Every time you do it right, you'll put that self esteem up a notch and you'll also get better at doing it 'right'.

One thing that really helped me was realising that the more I did the right thing when it felt tough, the more powerful I became. We don't teach our brains a lot when it's easy.

Oh and BTW, hate to break it to you, but almonds don't have carb cancelling properties, but I do envy your ability to have wonderful dreams

They do lower the GI value of foods that you eat with the though, which keeps blood sugars stable and help stop a dip which can bring on cravings and hunger.

Also packed with protein that help satiety.

There is another thing magic about almonds, but forgive me for not telling you what it is at this point. Trust me on this one

Hiya, I remember you starting out and now you're moving up the steps to maintenance. Good luck xx