Alexmummy's learning journey...

alexmummy07

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Hi to everyone

I'm really sorry but my first post on here is going to be quite long...

Firstly I'm Claire, I'm 22, and I have a little boy called Alex (hence the forum name). I've struggled with my weight most of my life, bullied at school for it, I did weight watchers from 16 onwards, and by 17 I was actually down to 10 stone 6, but still for my height overweight. I fell ill with glandular fever, then Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and given steroids to try to help, ballooned on them, as well as on the depo provera, and comfort ate even more! I met my fiance' and he was a bad one too, even though he has done kick boxing etc, all his cooking used to be fried! He was a real one for fried breakfasts, lots of take aways and we both made lots of excuses about why we didn't have 'time' to cook. (Just to note fiance' also dieted not on CD though, but healthy eating and exercise from Jan this year, and looks fab, he has gone down from 12 stone 3, to 10 stone 3 and is my own little Jamie Oliver in the kitchen now, and is my biggest supporter)

In December last year, I decided I'd had enough, I had tried every diet going after having Alex, and nothing worked, I even had both the dr's drugs, reductil and xenical (ali in the pharmacy) and I lost 4lbs in a month...at 17stone that's nothing! I was fed up, hated myself, and avoided every photo possible. In the first year of Alex's life, I have hardly any photo's of me with him, and the sadest part of all, is the day he was born I have none because I was embarrased how big I was (not from being pregnant either :( ) On Alex's 1st Birthday this was exactly the same, the only photo I have is a face shot of me with him, and the same at Xmas.

So I decided, I want to be around for my family, I want to be in those photo's and feel good in them too, I don't want to feel forced to go to family do's any more and hate going because I know I'm the biggest person there, and have nothing nice to wear, and end up rowing with fiance' because it's not his fault at the end of the day.

I want to be healthy for me, and for my family, and as soon as Xmas Day was over that was it for me, I haven't looked back.

So why am I here when I haven't got to goal yet?

Well after debating about whether or not to start a diary here for a while, it's almost been decided for me. Finacially things haven't gone to plan. After my fiance twice being made redundant last year, all our savings have gone, so when our family car broke down (again) about 4 weeks ago we were to say the least very worried, but my parents stepped in and offered to pay for repair for us. To cut a very long story short, on Thursday we were told the mechanic has come back and said without spending thousands and thousands and basically throwing money at a car that keeps having problems it isn't fixable, and in his opinion isn't worth it. (Very honest for a mechanic, and to be fair he has done himself out of work, which I think is honourable in this current credit crunch) Anyway spent most of Thursday in a daze as to how on earth we would get around this, as fiance works a good 15 or so miles from where we live, buses are a nightmare, and train would cost £18 a day! Ouch! Decided at that point that CD would have to come to an end...gutted.

Fiances' mum came over that night, and had a few phone calls from nan, and eventually they have decided between themselves that they want to help us as they know our situation and that without the redundancies and our run of bad luck (there's a fair bit more to all this but I'm babbling already!) that we would be on our own 2 feet. They agree CD is expensive and would like me not to quit, but to go up another plan (1000) so that we are at least trying to save some pennies each month, now that I have lost a bigger chunk of weight, and have less to go to goal now.

So have spent the weekend (somehow still staying 100% on 810) looking for cars, and have picked out a Renault Scenic 1.6 Expression + in Silver and we pick it up on Saturday. It's not brand new or anything, but it's nice, it's big, for future, and fit's Alex's buggy in! lol (it's like a 4x4 his buggy!)

Last night I weighed in with CDC and have lost 3lbs this week taking me to 12 stone 1 1/2, so I have 2 stone to get my BMI goal, and if you will have me here I would love to try and finish my journey here because I feel a bit odd in the other forums for being on a high plan, and I think my aims are slightly different now. Yes my aim is to lose those next 2 stone (and in a way as quickly as possible) but in another way, I also have got to Maintain, as I don't know how my body is going to cope on 1000, and most importantly if finances were to get any worse I need to be prepared to go to 1200 at any stage, which if 1000 scares me the way it does, then 1200 terrifies me.

Ok so will stop rambling now, I just wanted to get all I could remember out on one thread instead of keep going off on loads of tangents!

I'll just leave my menu for my first (terrifying day of 1000)

Breakfast
CD Shake - Choc Mint
2 Shredded Wheat + Milk from allowance

Lunch
Small Salad +fat free dressing
small banana

Tea
CD Bar - Caramel
Lemon & Basil Chicken
CousCous
Small Salad

++ Lots of water!:D
 
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Well done alexs mummy for getting everything down on paper. I find when reading the diaries it is nice to read ppls background info so you really understand where they are coming from and understand their struggles im the maintenance journey. I am on my first stage of maintenance and admit finding it hard to stay im right headspace now out me ketosis. Well done on such a good first day! And good luck, im looking forward to following your journey.
 
Well done alexs mummy for getting everything down on paper. I find when reading the diaries it is nice to read ppls background info so you really understand where they are coming from and understand their struggles im the maintenance journey. I am on my first stage of maintenance and admit finding it hard to stay im right headspace now out me ketosis. Well done on such a good first day! And good luck, im looking forward to following your journey.

Hi Raquel

Thanks for your reply.

Today has been good so far, switched tonight's salad for 3tbsp's of mushroom/courgette instead, but was fairly nice actually, but the Couscous seemed soo much!

Still glugging away tonight, as having a stinking headache, and my assignment still to complete by Thursday (ouch!)

Tomorrow's menu plan:

Breakfast:
CD Shake - Choc Mint (I'm a choc mint addict)
Shredded Wheat + Milk from Allowance

Lunch:
Small salad + squirt of balsamic vinegar

Dinner:
Tuna + Wholewheat Penne Pasta + small salad + fat free dressing
1 apple

+ lots of water
 
hi Alexmummy, not sure if i've welcomed you to the maintenance bit yet sorry! so here goes....welcome to the maintenance forum. :D
Good idea to start a diary I've found it helps me a lot to have somewhere to waffle on about myself;) and it really helps me to stay focused I think!

Good luck with your 1000 plan, looking good so far!

xx
 
Hi Alexmummy - Well done on your losses so far, you have lost LOADS!!! I'm lurking here more & more too as I am on 1000cals now, but still have to somehow shift my last 9 lbs to get to my 11stone goal. STS this week as TOTM :eek:, so don't really want to go upto 1200 yet. After SS it seems a lot of food on 1000, don't you think? I had a job fitting in the 2nd CD item last week, am trying harder this week ;).

Good luck on your continuing journey, will follow your diary with interest :).

Soon2bslimmer x
 
Hi Raquel

Thanks for your reply.

Today has been good so far, switched tonight's salad for 3tbsp's of mushroom/courgette instead, but was fairly nice actually, but the Couscous seemed soo much!

Still glugging away tonight, as having a stinking headache, and my assignment still to complete by Thursday (ouch!)

Tomorrow's menu plan:

Breakfast:
CD Shake - Choc Mint (I'm a choc mint addict)
Shredded Wheat + Milk from Allowance

Lunch:
Small salad + squirt of balsamic vinegar

Dinner:
Tuna + Wholewheat Penne Pasta + small salad + fat free dressing
1 apple

+ lots of water

Mmmmmmmmmm your food choices sound yum!!! I'll be joining you in a couple of weeks all being well.

You are doing really well. xx
 
Hi Alex, fab to see you over here and I think your reasoning is good... you have a plan and you seem so determined. You can do this, and once your body gets used to the change to 1000 you will be losing weight still. I love your focus and I know you will get to goal... big hugs!

xxx
 
Hi Everyone

Thanks for your lovely replies :)

Well it's day 2 on 1000 for me today, and yes soon2be slimmer it feels like A LOT of food! I feel like I'm being naughty even though I know it's all on plan! I keep thinking about the amount of Couscous last night even though I had measured it out dry weight at 40g...:rolleyes: must just be me not being used to having carbs again!

Anyway I'm 1 litre 3/4 down so far today, so will keep glugging whilst I've got my assignment still to do. It's due in tomorrow - bad me I know, should have had it finished last week, but after Thursday's disaster, sent me totally off track, lost the plot, then went car hunting weekend, had to scrub the house on Monday as I keep getting ants! And I hate hate hate bugs - So scrubbed everywhere, but yesterday, no excuse, and today still I'm dilly dallying, just no motivation at the moment - so severe telling off for me! :copon:

Food wise, I'm coming round to the shredded wheat - obviously the main reason why I'm on 1000 is financial so I've bulk bought shredded wheat so I have no choice but to eat it, I just wish I could put sweetener on it, because it's so mmm what's the word...dry? I think it's just my sweet tooth wanting to put it on, but know that I can't so won't. I've done so well with not touching salt since December and don't miss it at all, so I've now just got to fight the sugar/sweetener thing.

Looking forward to my dinner tonight, although I feel I may be in for a looong night on the laptop with this assignment...arghhhh! :copon: my own fault...ish :sigh:

Really really hoping that the scales might just show a loss on Monday although trying to prepare myself for the worst...I've not had a gain yet, so I'm terrified even though I should really be prepared for it.

On a positive, it's my mum's 25th Anniversary on the 11th July, and am thinking of trying the dress on in a day or so, to see how it (might) be fitting now...if I do, I'll put a picture up on here. If I also hit my target of 11 1/2 stone before then ...please please please then I'm going to have hair chopped nicely again, as it's all fallen out of shape again. Daren't have it coloured or anything because so much has fallen out over the last month or so...diet related me thinks, so will leave that until the end of it, when I will not be able to wait any longer to go back blonde :D

Take Care All, if you've managed to get this far lol

Claire xx
 
How's it going Alex? Did you get the assignment done?

xxx
 
Good luck with your final push :) xx
 
Hi All

Finally got the assignment in last night (they are submitted online so can go to 11.59)

Food wise, yesterday was a repeat of the previous day, I was so busy that I just didn't have time to think, and ended up having a lot to eat in the evening so just felt stuffed, rather than spacing the food out like I have been.

We get the new car tomorrow, which I think I've been so distracted about that I've almost forgotten, and wish I was a bit more excited about :rolleyes:

Plan for today is to drink lots, space meals out (says me who hasn't had breakfast yet!) onto that next! Promise! Just sooo tired, and worn out emotionally from everything, so much/too much going on.

Going to have a long soak in the bath and try and refresh myself ready for the weekend to try and enjoy it a bit.

Ok so Menu Plan for today:

Breakfast:
CD Shake - Choc Mint (yes I'm an addict)
Shredded Wheat + milk allowance

Lunch:
CD Bar
Small Salad + Sprinkling Balsamic Vinegar

Dinner:
3/4 allowance Quorn Chicken pieces with garlic powder (herb rack one)
1/4 allowance Cottage Cheese
3 tbsps mixed courgette and mushrooms

Have a good day all xx




 
Day 6 of 1000 plan, and still enjoying it. Had to mix up my meals a bit more today as have been out and about all day, with getting rid of old car, getting new car, etc. Feel shattered tonight, could do with a lazy day tomorrow, but not going to get it :(

Maybe next weekend - hopefully!

Weigh in coming up fast now on Monday...very nervous, but really hoping for a loss.

Will log in tomorrow for Menu's etc as just toooo tired today! x
 
hey Alexmummy, your menu's are looking fab! it's hard to get all the food in sometimes isn't it after SS! Good luck for Wi today i hope it goes well!
xx
 
Honey, you are doing so well. You seem like you really have got yourself together and I am so pleased. Can't wait to see what your WI result is this week. xx
 
Fingers crossed for you honey.

xxx
 
Hi all

Thanks for all your support, it really does mean so much to me.

Well I'm back from W.I. and managed to lose 3/4lb this week - not bad, but not great either. I'm a little disappointed as would have loved to get under 12 stone (This takes me to exactly 12 stone 1) but pleased because I have had a loss on 1000 plan, and was terrified of putting on, on the first week too. CDC convinced will have a better loss next week, and has mentioned that even a few weeks on 810 I lost only 1/2lb (which is very true)

Would lurrrve to get under that 12 stone mark next week, can't remember the last time I was in the 11's.

So, sat down now with some dinner at last, chicken, cottage cheese, courgettes and couscous, yum yum :)

Also, got my assignment back today and got 75 % - very pleased!

Before I go, just a question to anyone who has done 1000 plan, did you lose more in the second week or after rather than the 1st week. I think I'm having a mind battle as to whether I will lose more than 3/4lb next week. x

 
I stayed same first week and lost the next... so keep smiling, it will catch up! And well done with assignment!!!

xxx
 
Great news on a loss for your 1st week of 1000 that's fab!
xx
 
Hi Everyone!

I think I've calmed down from my weigh in on Monday now, and am mostly now focused towards next weeks weigh in now. I really really want to get into the 11 stone's, so I need something more than 1lb...so here goes!

Been to a friend's today which was lovely, it was at her daughters 1st Birthday party that I finally decided enough was enough and I decided to research into LL and came across CD - THE best decision I have ever made, and it was nice to go back to the place I started from in a weird way.

The only downside to today is I have given in to my first temptation...about 20mls of a salad sauce that I shouldn't have had, it was a balsamic vinegar/oil one from M&S - very nice but the calories weren't very great - so slapped wrist for me, and I will be throwing it out so that I can't have it again. My reason for having it I think is because I have gotten so bored with the plain 0% fat italian herb dressing, so I need to find a new one that is 0% fat aswell to stop the boredom.

Will be gutted if I have affected the scales on Monday because of the sauce today, so am absolutely back in the saddle...and carrying on with 1000 now...and praying for the 1 1/4lb + loss on Monday

So, today's Menu stands like this:

Breakfast:
CD Shake - Choc Mint
Shredded Wheat + Milk from allowance

Lunch:
Small Salad + 0% fat free italian dressing.

Dinner:
Tuna, Low fat cottage cheese, cous cous, 3 tbsps salad + the very bad balsamic vinegar/oil. - SLAPPED WRIST!!


 
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