My name's Candice. I'm 26 and live in Scotland.
I have never been 'thin'. I've always bought clothes that fit to hide the fat. Every time I'd go clothes shopping I'd stare at myself in the changing room mirror and my cellulite would be so obvious under the glare of that horrible incandescent light and swear to myself that I wouldn't put on any more weight but work to lose the last few pounds I had just gained.
My mum and dad have always wanted me to lose weight for my health more than anything. I want to too. But the more I seemed to want, I guess I just didn't want it enough because the last few years have seen me put on 6 stone too much.
Studying a lot during university didn't help. I would shy away from physical activity. I'd find it boring - to be honest still do.
I ate when I was happy, when I was stressed, sad, frustrated, bored you name it, I'd find an excuse.
Things got so bad I wouldn't want to eat in public because I would think people would be judging me cos of what the fat girl was eating. I would play the 'fat' game - sizing up all the girls and feel bad when I realised I was the fattest person in the room.
I tried CWP for my wedding last year but didn't really manage it. I was 13st when I got married. We went on our honeymoon and I put on even more weight. Started a new job just after which involved sitting around for the whole day instead of being on my feet. Put on even more.
So at the beginning of April I weighed a whopping 14st 12lb. Way too much for being 5'0". I felt like the hulk, bursting out of the shirts. My trousers started to get tight and my 'fat clothes' weren't even fitting. So I decided to draw the line there and refused to buy clothes a size up. I did a solid 4 weeks on the plan then had to go to a dinner at the start of May and then got sidetracked off the plan for a couple of weeks. I have been back on it now for the last 5 days.
I weighed myself today and I now weigh 13st 9lb. So, so far, I have lost 17lbs in total. I am happy with this but still have a long way to go. My mum and dad live in another country and so I won't see them for a while. The next time I see them, I want to be smokin hot! haha
My first mini-goal is 12 stone by the end of June which is when I go on holiday!
Hopefully I'm well on track.
So off I go to have a protein meal - I'm doing sole source plus. It helps me stay focussed. I have been eating zero noodles which are not bad actually ... zero carbs, zero calories. I'm going to go have them with some egg, cottage cheese and mushrooms. it may not sound that appetizing but it tastes quite nice actually!