lauraelizabeth
Member
Hiya Everyone!
I am a self-confessed carb junkie, sugar junkie, boredom and emotional eater.
3 weeks ago I decided to end this destructive cycle I have with food!
It was a very unhealthy relationship In more ways than one.
I was bullied quite a lot as a child and in my early teens, mainly around my weight. I was never fat, just a bit of 'puppy fat'. A sensitive child, I was an easy target for bullies and it left me with an 'emptiness', which consequently I tried to fill with food. My dad is one of those "eat everything on the plate" kd of dads, as he came from a very under-privileged background and likes us to eat eat eat! Only whe we had finished our dinner, ere we allowed dessert (usually a chocolate/other flavor yoghurt of some kind). This was the beginning f one of my first habits, which is after eating a huge savory meal, then craving something sweet.
Not that I blame my dad, I don't at all but it was this 'eat all that's on the plate before you have dessert attitude' that was drilled into me, which now as an adult, has been super difficult to break.
Eating quickly is on of my big problems too, I barely taste my food before I swallow it and don't give myself enough time to digest it and feel full, before I go up for second servings!
Then within an hour after dinner I chow down on something sweet, even if im still full!
I'd eat when im bored, when im sad, when im happy or angry or having a shitty day or if my friends are eating, ill eat too, evn if I have already eaten.
When I startd dating my current boyfriend 4 years ago, we go 'comfortable' as you do in long term relationships and we both kind of 'let ourselves go'
I became depressed, suicidal, I hated the way I looked with a passion, id self harm, not necessarily cutting myself, but punchng scratching because I was so frustrated. Finally, after years of struggling with body issues, I sought out a lovely doctor's help who put me on anti-depressants and referred me to a councilor.
Which seems to have improved my frame of mind significantly, and now that im in a good frame of mind, I knew that I could start the CD and be successful!
So... three weeks In and ive lost about 4kg, which is about 8lb I think?? correct me If im wrong! I haven't been to my third weigh in yet so im not sure what ill be this week!
ive had some slips and trips, last weekend was my last week of my nursing degree, so I did indulge on chips (I felt soooo sick afterward) then on the Saturday night I had an engagement party which had a buffet, which I totally indulged on....oops.
Still I did lose some weight, so I have to be happy with that as I was afraid I might gain it!
Im quit god during the week, as I have a routine with work or university etc and this week, like week one, I have ben 100% coherent to the diet, which makes me feel good.
HOWEVER, today I was craving nuts soooo bad, I mean intense cravings just for some plain walnuts or peanuts or anything...so ive just had about a handful of plain walnuts. Although, im not feeling TOO bad about it, as it could have easily been chocolate I was craving and I could be eating mass amounts of chocolate right now, but im not, so im happy!
I have about 10 more kg to lose, Im tall (about 5ft 9), so my consultant and I are happy for me to sit at around 70-72kg (11stone-11 3). Which would be perfect!
this forum is awesome!
Hope to hear from you all on your adventures with CD!
Laura xx
I am a self-confessed carb junkie, sugar junkie, boredom and emotional eater.
3 weeks ago I decided to end this destructive cycle I have with food!
It was a very unhealthy relationship In more ways than one.
I was bullied quite a lot as a child and in my early teens, mainly around my weight. I was never fat, just a bit of 'puppy fat'. A sensitive child, I was an easy target for bullies and it left me with an 'emptiness', which consequently I tried to fill with food. My dad is one of those "eat everything on the plate" kd of dads, as he came from a very under-privileged background and likes us to eat eat eat! Only whe we had finished our dinner, ere we allowed dessert (usually a chocolate/other flavor yoghurt of some kind). This was the beginning f one of my first habits, which is after eating a huge savory meal, then craving something sweet.
Not that I blame my dad, I don't at all but it was this 'eat all that's on the plate before you have dessert attitude' that was drilled into me, which now as an adult, has been super difficult to break.
Eating quickly is on of my big problems too, I barely taste my food before I swallow it and don't give myself enough time to digest it and feel full, before I go up for second servings!
Then within an hour after dinner I chow down on something sweet, even if im still full!
I'd eat when im bored, when im sad, when im happy or angry or having a shitty day or if my friends are eating, ill eat too, evn if I have already eaten.
When I startd dating my current boyfriend 4 years ago, we go 'comfortable' as you do in long term relationships and we both kind of 'let ourselves go'
I became depressed, suicidal, I hated the way I looked with a passion, id self harm, not necessarily cutting myself, but punchng scratching because I was so frustrated. Finally, after years of struggling with body issues, I sought out a lovely doctor's help who put me on anti-depressants and referred me to a councilor.
Which seems to have improved my frame of mind significantly, and now that im in a good frame of mind, I knew that I could start the CD and be successful!
So... three weeks In and ive lost about 4kg, which is about 8lb I think?? correct me If im wrong! I haven't been to my third weigh in yet so im not sure what ill be this week!
ive had some slips and trips, last weekend was my last week of my nursing degree, so I did indulge on chips (I felt soooo sick afterward) then on the Saturday night I had an engagement party which had a buffet, which I totally indulged on....oops.
Still I did lose some weight, so I have to be happy with that as I was afraid I might gain it!
Im quit god during the week, as I have a routine with work or university etc and this week, like week one, I have ben 100% coherent to the diet, which makes me feel good.
HOWEVER, today I was craving nuts soooo bad, I mean intense cravings just for some plain walnuts or peanuts or anything...so ive just had about a handful of plain walnuts. Although, im not feeling TOO bad about it, as it could have easily been chocolate I was craving and I could be eating mass amounts of chocolate right now, but im not, so im happy!
I have about 10 more kg to lose, Im tall (about 5ft 9), so my consultant and I are happy for me to sit at around 70-72kg (11stone-11 3). Which would be perfect!
this forum is awesome! Hope to hear from you all on your adventures with CD!
Laura xx
