Well I am now in week four of this diet, I was ok the first few weeks but am starting to struggle so thought I would post a diary in the hope that not only do I find it easier if I'm writing it all down but hopefully will get some support from you guys out there too (((PLEASE)))
Bit of background, I did quite successfully on Lighterlife a few years ago but came off it and straight back to my old eating habits, was on it for four months in total and this time plan on not stopping until I am finished and all the weight has gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was too easy to say, well I'm still 14 stone so it's more difficult for me to exercise, etc, I also have asthma and am guilty of using this as an excuse not to work out.
I'm hoping that if I lose the weight that I will want to exercise, want to eat healthier as I will know what it has been like to live for so long, big and unhappy!
I look at myself some days and I know that all anyone else see's is the happy go lucky exterior I present to the world, why is it that very few people see through this exterior.
My best friend regularly comments on how she wishes that she were as confident as I am and that she envies me. This is a women who gives talks to large groups and happily sits in meetings with management for her organisation and who envies me??? I just don't get it, I sometimes wish she could actually see the real me, the one who is terrified to eat in public because I'm convinced that people will stare at me and make fun of my weight, the one who would sit in the car to eat chocolate and then hide the wrappers so that no one would know.
I still have pieces of fudge in a bag from 4 weeks ago before I started the diet because I was ashamed to admit to my partner that I had bought it.
Any way I digress, I have been on step 2 as my BMI was 44.1, I've now got it down to 40.3 and need to think about whether or not to go to ss, my consultant has only ever been on step 2 and is encouraging me to do the same however, I find I struggle to eat all 3 shakes and eat a meal too, maybe because I was on lighterlife, I constantly feel like I am cheating and I would almost prefer to have that strict guideline that SS brings with it.
For example my consultant said that she allows herself some diet drinks on step 2, so what do I do, drink about litre a day of diet coke! Am really thinking that no choice would be the best choice for me right now.
I enjoy having my chicken in an evening but am such a fussy eater that that is about all I'm eating lol, have started to think that I would happily never see another chicken in my life!!!!
I was really motivated when I started and even had Christmas dinner so that I wouldn't feel cheated in December lol, I need to find that motivation again otherwise this is going to be a very long few months with me desperate to cheat.
I suppose my weight loss this week hasn't helped as I only lost 2 lbs and never cheated (well apart from the diet coke) but there is an evil little voice in my head saying, you could have done that with a normal diet, the reason I chose Cambridge was definitely for the quick weight loss amongst other things and I just need to keep reminding myself that while I only lost 2 lb this week I have lost 22lb in 4 weeks, that would not have happened any other way.
Sorry for rambling but would love to hear from anyone who would like to join me along my journey.
Bit of background, I did quite successfully on Lighterlife a few years ago but came off it and straight back to my old eating habits, was on it for four months in total and this time plan on not stopping until I am finished and all the weight has gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was too easy to say, well I'm still 14 stone so it's more difficult for me to exercise, etc, I also have asthma and am guilty of using this as an excuse not to work out.
I'm hoping that if I lose the weight that I will want to exercise, want to eat healthier as I will know what it has been like to live for so long, big and unhappy!
I look at myself some days and I know that all anyone else see's is the happy go lucky exterior I present to the world, why is it that very few people see through this exterior.
My best friend regularly comments on how she wishes that she were as confident as I am and that she envies me. This is a women who gives talks to large groups and happily sits in meetings with management for her organisation and who envies me??? I just don't get it, I sometimes wish she could actually see the real me, the one who is terrified to eat in public because I'm convinced that people will stare at me and make fun of my weight, the one who would sit in the car to eat chocolate and then hide the wrappers so that no one would know.
I still have pieces of fudge in a bag from 4 weeks ago before I started the diet because I was ashamed to admit to my partner that I had bought it.
Any way I digress, I have been on step 2 as my BMI was 44.1, I've now got it down to 40.3 and need to think about whether or not to go to ss, my consultant has only ever been on step 2 and is encouraging me to do the same however, I find I struggle to eat all 3 shakes and eat a meal too, maybe because I was on lighterlife, I constantly feel like I am cheating and I would almost prefer to have that strict guideline that SS brings with it.
For example my consultant said that she allows herself some diet drinks on step 2, so what do I do, drink about litre a day of diet coke! Am really thinking that no choice would be the best choice for me right now.
I enjoy having my chicken in an evening but am such a fussy eater that that is about all I'm eating lol, have started to think that I would happily never see another chicken in my life!!!!
I was really motivated when I started and even had Christmas dinner so that I wouldn't feel cheated in December lol, I need to find that motivation again otherwise this is going to be a very long few months with me desperate to cheat.
I suppose my weight loss this week hasn't helped as I only lost 2 lbs and never cheated (well apart from the diet coke) but there is an evil little voice in my head saying, you could have done that with a normal diet, the reason I chose Cambridge was definitely for the quick weight loss amongst other things and I just need to keep reminding myself that while I only lost 2 lb this week I have lost 22lb in 4 weeks, that would not have happened any other way.
Sorry for rambling but would love to hear from anyone who would like to join me along my journey.