One More Chocolcate Won't Hurt: Diary of a Serial Dieter
Hi everyone, Ive decided to start this online diary/blog as a way of motivating myself to lose weight. For anyone who reads this, you are more than welcome to get involved, comment, share your story etc, Id love to hear from you.
Im your normal 30 year old girl (who feels like I should still be 24) struggling with my weight. I work full time in marketing and have a busy professional life. I used to have a busy social life too, and still do to an extent, but home and creature comforts have set in since moving away from my home town of London five years ago, and the weight has piled on with it.
Ive always been a heavy girl. Im 5 foot 9 and 211 pounds so have set myself a target to lose 2 and a half stone to get back to being comfortable.
Nearly 7 years ago, I was 12 stone. I was happy and confident. Not too slim, not too big. I had lost a couple of stone a little prior to that and over the years my portions have increased (man sized!), carbs are a feature at every meal, and chocolate is my bestest friend.
I have attempted the Cambridge Diet a few times, and lost a stone here and there and then put it back on. We've all done this before, right? Please dont say Im the only one!! Right now is the tipping point for me - cant put it off any longer!
I keep thinking....Rather than complain about my weight EVERY DAY of my life, why cant I just stick to the diet for 2 or 3 months and change my life completely? I suppose for me, its never been as easy as that. I guess I havent truly been ready. Plus, my willpower sucks!
So yesterday was my first weigh in. 15 stone on the nose. I had my 3 shakes, 2 ltrs of water, a diet coke, and 2 skinny cappuccinos in the day. When I got home from work I had a salad. Why, I have no idea as I am on sole source, but I covinced myself I was starving. I was pretty hungry, but I could have managed without. I went to bed at about about 11pm. I had a headache, and my tummy hurt but I couldnt work out why? This feeling had never happened to me on the diet before?? Then I realised...Ive been taking Metformin for PCOS. I dont actually have PCOS (I was diagnosed with it at the age of 13, and then was told I dont have it last year) but I have been prescribed it to help with fertility. Anyhoo, this medication helps release insulin, and I hadnt eaten all day (except the salad). So, to cut a long story short, I went down stairs and had 3 pieces of bread.
Thats a lie, I had 5.
I was like a child out of Oliver Twist, and ate it so fast, I didnt realise how much I was eating until I was done.
I woke up this morning and felt rubbish for giving in, but wasnt too hard on myself as I really did feel awful prior to the bread. Ive lost 1 pound which is neither here nor there at this stage, but I am determined to carry on. Im 1 pound closer to my target! Im just about to have my first shake of the day and wash it down with some water. Yummy!
If anyone wants to buddy with me, that would be awesome! If not, feel free to read my blog. I cant promise it will be too exciting, give you a laugh a minute, or that it will be motivating, but it sure will be honest.
Cyprus, June 2014, Im coming to get you.....with a bikini on and full of life!
Here it goes....