Ruthlet's Road to being a loser!
Hi all :o
I'm feeling a bit nervous posting but here goes......
I am not new to CWP. I first followed the CWP back in 2007 and lost 79lbs in 5 1/2 months taking me down to a healthy BMI. I successfully maintained from 2007-2012 (excluding 12 months while pregnant and losing weight afterwards) but sadly I find myself completely out of control of my eating with my weight just going up and up and up :(. I can't tell you how nerve-wracking it is posting that I am starting over again - it feels like I am a failure. But then I have to remind myself that I am only a failure if I stop trying!
Long story short... I had a breakdown in 2012 and being a chronic emotional eater, I fell back into my old eating habits. As if my poor emotional food choices were not enough to tank on the pounds, the medication I was prescribed is also notorious for causing weight gain and resulted in weight gain much faster than I have ever experienced before.
I have been umming and aahhhing about coming back to CWP, but didn't want to take the plunge until I felt I was strong enough to fully commit and take full responsibility and control of my own destiny. I am now on a good path as far as my mental and emotional wellbeing are concerned, and am well enough that I no longer need the anti-depressants :p I really feel that the last stage in my recovery journey is to shed my excess pounds. So here I am!
Having tried a truck-load of different diets before I discovered CWP in 2007, I feel that SS/SS+ is the right choice for me. I really admire people that can stick with plans like WW and SW to lose weight, but they are just to open-ended for me, one syn would quickly become 10 before I realise how much I have eaten :eek: The thing that really resonated for me the first time I did the plan was how SS/SS+ is like hitting a reset button. Clean slate, taking food out of the equation to allow me to identify my triggers for over-eating and put in place alternative coping mechanisms for the future. Thats the plan anyway ;)
So I am off to see my consultant tomorrow. I never kept a diary when I was losing before, but this time around I thought it might help me to have somewhere to share my experiences on the journey ahead of me.
Have a good day all :)
Day 2 - 6 types of birthday cake and not a crumb passed my lips. Yee-haa!
Its been a long old day.
Firstly, I stayed up far too late reading threads on here :doh: Then when I got into bed I couldn't sleep as the rain was so loud :rolleyes: Once the rain eased off I was too cold :sigh: Then shortly after I fell asleep my 4yo daughter appeared in our room telling tales of noisy dragons and freckles and proceeded to be wide awake for a couple of hours *yawn*
I spent the afternoon at a friends daughters birthday party. There was a massive party food buffet :eek: and (no word of a lie) 6..........yes 6 different cakes :drool: What did I have? A cup of tea :cool: I am still utterly amazed my resolve held strong.
I'm just in from work & had my last shake. Having a quick look on here with a decaf cuppa in hand then I'll be off to bed.
So that's it, day 2 done 100% :D Awesome!
Thank you for your kind words Pink Tulip :hug99:I really can relate to what you said about feeling dissapointed in yourself. However, you have taken control & cleared day 1 :clap:I hope day 2 has gone equally well x
Day 5 DONE 100% & Day 6 almost there and WILL BE 100%!
Well yesterday was another 100% on plan*air fist punch*!
I have joined the 2 week challenge that started yesterday and really want to be able to track my loss so had a cheeky weigh this morning :scale: I have not weighed at home since last Sunday morning when I was 16st4lb. I cut down on my carbs Sunday-Tuesday before starting SS+ on Wednesday. The scales show me being 15st10lb this morning :party0011: thats a whopping 8lbs off :eek: and I haven't even finished my first full week of SS+. It is safe to say I am absolutely chuffed to bits and more motivated than before to keep on chugging my water & sticking to plan 100%.
Sophiesophs - I am totally with you on fleecy socks in bed :giggle: I am soooooo flipping cold. Thats one of the reasons I am so desperate to crack on as I want to be out of ketosis and working up the plans before autumn when it gets cold again!
AutumnAshes - I too am a bit of a antisocial nerd truth be told. I would much rather snuggle up on the sofa at home and read a book, watch sci-fi telly or play boardgames than go out on the town :p. I can't avoid this birthday meal though - my friend has specifically booked it for a day and time when I am not working and she knows my hubby is available to watch our LO.
I have had a busy DIY day - I'm making good use of all the time I would usually spend cooking and shopping ;) So far I'm still on plan with my last shake still to go so I'm pretty sure this will be another 100% day :)