My constant procrastination has seen me restart plan multiple times, move from slim and save to exante to my own modified VLCD. Bounced from forum to forum, plan to plan which has all mentally drained my strength.
I have got so big that I am nearly a recluse. Being a full time carer for my mum provides the perfect opportunity to make excuses not to leave the house, comfort eat when her condition gets worse and just feel terrible in general.
I have always been a fit healthy runner but unfortunately suffered a terrible knee injury which literally immobilized me. I gained some weight which I successfully lost with CWP. I did not take maintenance very seriously and gained 30 lbs during that period. My mums condition got worse, I quit my job to care for her full time hence the emotional eating. I have binged! binged! Late night binges, early morning binges and with my emotional state led to a further 6 stone weight gain. I am so ashamed.
I found several CWP Consultants but my procrastination + constant excuses led to failure. Excuses from there is no point... It will not work again.... I have bad stretch marks... No one cares if I stay unhealthy......I will start tomorrow.....etc You name the excuse, I used it.
I had to sit and have a talk with myself (literally) and decide if I would prefer to remain unhealthy or believe in myself and get the happy me back.To be honest, I am scared of failure and the unknown right now but I think it is also part of my sub-conscious making excuses. This is why the accountability with CWP works for me. I chose to dedicate myself and do this. I have cut out negative people even friends with foodie issues until I lose at least a fair amount of weight. I cannot afford any distractions. I am working with the most amazing consultant who does not tolerate excuses. Love her
So........... Tomorrow is day one of week one and will post daily but nothing to do with weight or how much I have lost. My diary right now will focus on my struggles and highs as I grow emotionally. Thus, I will post when I reach my goal with pictures for now my goal is to take it a day at a time and go to bed a winner. Join Me.
Apologies for the long post and good luck to you all xx