Hey everyone, i've been here before and i'm back but as motivated as ever!
Here's my diary from christmas up until today....i'm also using facebook as a little blog to spur some of my mates on.. so i'm explaining the weight plan on one post...
So after 2 weekends of heavy drinking over Christmas, we're talking a litre of Smirnoff each night and all the bad choices in food that comes with poor judgment when under the influence, don't get me wrong, it's been an amazing Christmas and apart from getting fat, I've got some amazing gifts and made some amazing memories. It's now December 30th 2014 and I'm feeling like utter poo, my liver is doing backflips trying to escape my body before I abuse it anymore and my body is craving a healthy lifestyle. I've just started writing this diary on the notes app on my phone after googling "insanity" reviews. I have had the DVDs for ages, splashed out £100 on the little ******* and lent them to my Brother because aching that much scared the poo out of me but now I'm determined. I've spent the past week looking for the right gym clothes, but let's face it, no amount of Adidas originals clothing is going to make you look any better when your sweating like a fat chick at a disco (which is exactly what I am)... So here I am, after a night at Miller & Carter with food hangover, counting down the days until I join that gym and start day 1 of the 60 day insanity challenge.
New Year's Day! Happy new year everybody! Woke up still a bit drunk and go into the fridge to see I raided the sausage rolls when I got home at 5am... That was a terrible start to the new healthier me. But I was drunk and I started drinking the night before in 2014, so I'm going to let that one slide! So today instead of mardarsing about with a hangover, I've got up & ready, had breakfast and dragged the kids along with me to a walk up a big hill. My kids are so unfit, moaning because I'm making them walk! Don't get me wrong, I was so close to going into cardiac arrest at the top of them steps, if it wasn't for the 2 guys already up there, I'd have lay on the floor while I got my breath back but I just played it cool even though trying to control my own breathing nearly suffocated me!! Today I'm hoping to get my DVDs off my Bro & start insanity! I'm scared! If this ends up being my last post... the challenge has killed me off! Oh and please bury me in my new gym gear I paid lots of money for yesterday, thanks!
I tried insanity, I failed after the warm up. That shhh is too intense for somebody so unfit! I went for a jog instead... I jogged straight into a massive puddle and I got overtaken by an OAP. No confidence to jog in public! Get a grip Jade! So anyway my whole plan changed, I'm back on Cambridge weight plan... For those who don't know, Cambridge Sole Source (the plan I'm doing) you drink 4 shakes/soups a day or you can have porridges, bars, and lucky for me they have bought out a spag Bol that you can actually chew, this is helping me loads. It is a very low calorie diet, I think I'm on 600 odd calories a day with plenty of water and you can drink black tea/coffee. I know, sounds like torture right? Damn right it's torture, especially day 1-3 when your body is adjusting to this sadistic shhh your inflicting on it! After about day 3, your body goes into a state of ketosis where it uses your own fat stores for energy. So many times even a salad has looked appealing to me but I'm dedicated this time and I'm now on day 6. Over Christmas I weighed in at about 14.4. This morning I was 13.6! So pleased with my shrinking self and this is what is motivating me to carry on. Unfortunately, I can't do any exercise at the moment due to my calorie restriction but I'd rather see the scales go down first for motivation. I went to see my friend tonight, she asked me to go the shop with her. I was asked if I wanted buy some bacon for £1, I replied no thank you, I've not eaten for 6 days and continued to pay for my bottle of water... It was then I realised I must sound like I'm off my head on narcotics haha! Found some old fat pics of me the other day, I cried and I'm surprised my parents let me out looking like that! So even more motivation there! Tonight's the first weekend night, let's test out that willpower!
I did it... I sooooo did it! I went to the cinema last night and watched Taken 3 with just a bottle of water! The film was good... I love date nights, even though I'm a cheap date. Today I was talked into driving to Chesterfield to watch Vale play, they played poo by the way... And my ears are still ringing from the crowd but still I survived on just water and thankfully my passengers survived the journey! I don't think there's much more that could challenge my willpower right now... I'm in the zone! Feels good to be fresh as a daisy and not stupidly hungover!
Day 8.. Still going strong. It's not until you start a no food weight plan that there is food everywhere. I wake up to the smell of cooking sausages, so I down a pint of water. You log on Facebook, everyone's posting food porn pics.. You switch on the TV... Food, food... Everywhere! But I no longer crave this food and somewhere in my twisted little mind, I enjoy seeing people eat when I'm not, it Spurs me on and if people around me are getting fatter, I may even appear slimmer without even trying haha. I can feel my ribs and hips again, where the bloody hell have you been? 1 stone to go until I'm a healthy BMI, I should be at that within the next 4 weeks if I don't cave, but like I say.. I've survived social events this weekend and that was my biggest fear! My Mum & Dad are talking holidays.. When aren't they talking holidays? It's making me think about my holiday in October.. Also I've been asked to be bridesmaid, all of these things to carry on for. No food or alcohol is going to feel better than feeling good on these occasions. Bring on a new smaller wardrobe. I've been size 12 once and I will do it again. Although even at size 12 I will still see myself as a size 18. The mind is cruel! Maybe I should go for some sort of therapy haha, I'm such a freak!