So here I am to begin what feels like my gazillianth diet! I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been and it's really putting life on a bit of a downer. Through my 20's my weight has been up and down a lot but each time it has gone up its gone up a bit more than the last time so here I am peaking at 16st 8lb at 32. It is causing me difficulty walking, it feels like I am being stabbed through my hips with hot pokers after about 50 meters which I am finding incredibly painful and embarrassing. Adding to the embarrassment and awkwardness of it regularly being assumed that I am 'due to drop' due to my body shape of slim legs and a fat tum! I have a good sense of humour and am aware of my shape so Not the end of the world but it is kind of preventing me going out incase someone asks me. Someone even asked my oh last week if I'd had the baby as I looked due to drop! Give me a break haha.
And next.....we are due to open a lovely sandwich shop & bakery on the 7th of April! Help!! 2 things really, I want to be in control of my eating and seeing results by then in order to maintain focus. And the other....I just don't feel comfortable with the way I look or the way clothes are fitting me and don't want to be feeling so un confident when that first customer walks through the door!!
So here I am ready and raring. I started yesterday and am feeling focused. I am usually quite good once a put my mind to it and can have some good weight loss but I really want this to be the last time and never want to be anywhere near this weight again. It is going to be important for me to have a hold on this in the shop.
im going to keep this diary to motivate and analyse my journey. I'm really looking forward to not feeling this crappy! I'm going to do this for my own happiness....and I'm going to wear clothes I want to, not just the ones that fit
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And next.....we are due to open a lovely sandwich shop & bakery on the 7th of April! Help!! 2 things really, I want to be in control of my eating and seeing results by then in order to maintain focus. And the other....I just don't feel comfortable with the way I look or the way clothes are fitting me and don't want to be feeling so un confident when that first customer walks through the door!!
So here I am ready and raring. I started yesterday and am feeling focused. I am usually quite good once a put my mind to it and can have some good weight loss but I really want this to be the last time and never want to be anywhere near this weight again. It is going to be important for me to have a hold on this in the shop.
im going to keep this diary to motivate and analyse my journey. I'm really looking forward to not feeling this crappy! I'm going to do this for my own happiness....and I'm going to wear clothes I want to, not just the ones that fit
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