The diary to end all diaries

scooterchick

She's me in a few months
As you can probably guess from the title, I'm no stranger to starting diaries. I'm overweight and I know I know I need to lose weight. But I'm in denial. I suffer from body dismorphic disorder or whatever you call it, in opposite. I don't see myself as big as I truly am. I look at my profile pic and various other photo's taken over the years and I'm fairly happy with what I see, I have a beautiful face (or at least I used to) and although I've always been curvy, my face carried it. When I look in the mirror I preen myself, suck my tummy in, and as there is no-one standing beside me as a direct comparison, I actually look not too bad, a bit chubby but it's fine.

But it's not.

Someone took a photograph of me the other night and posted it on facebook. My eyes have been opened. I can't believe what I've done to myself. I actually thought I was fine, even maybe fanciable. I was so wrong. I need to lose weight, no more playing with it, I've been hovering around 18st since Feb after losing a stone in January. If I'd stuck to it I could be 14st by now. And then maybe fanciable. So here it is............

No more joking around, I don't want to be that woman. I want to be her in the avvy. And it's not just about the way I look, I keep falling over, I think because my centre of gravity is so messed up (I'm a large apple), my legs and feet and sore al the time, and I have 3 wee boys to look after (on my own!). As well as working and trying to get my singing career underway again. I need energy. In abundance.
 

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As you can probably guess from the title, I'm no stranger to starting diaries. I'm overweight and I know I know I need to lose weight. But I'm in denial. I suffer from body dismorphic disorder or whatever you call it, in opposite. I don't see myself as big as I truly am. I look at my profile pic and various other photo's taken over the years and I'm fairly happy with what I see, I have a beautiful face (or at least I used to) and although I've always been curvy, my face carried it. When I look in the mirror I preen myself, suck my tummy in, and as there is no-one standing beside me as a direct comparison, I actually look not too bad, a bit chubby but it's fine.

But it's not.

Someone took a photograph of me the other night and posted it on facebook. My eyes have been opened. I can't believe what I've done to myself. I actually thought I was fine, even maybe fanciable. I was so wrong. I need to lose weight, no more playing with it, I've been hovering around 18st since Feb after losing a stone in January. If I'd stuck to it I could be 14st by now. And then maybe fanciable. So here it is............

No more joking around, I don't want to be that woman. I want to be her in the avvy. And it's not just about the way I look, I keep falling over, I think because my centre of gravity is so messed up (I'm a large apple), my legs and feet and sore al the time, and I have 3 wee boys to look after (on my own!). As well as working and trying to get my singing career underway again. I need energy. In abundance.

Big hugs :hug99: You *are* that gorgeous woman you believe you are - she's just carrying a little too much gorgeousness around. It's only fair that you share that around a bit. Be fair. :)

So, no pressure then - diary to end all diaries indeed. :D It does help though. Every time you want to eat, you come and post rubbish here. Or even interesting stuff in you like. I've been toying with the idea of Googling jokes to share. Pictures are always good, particularly those of cats doing stoopid things - who doesn't like those?

Oh and the falling over thing - me too. I hardly ever wear heels these days, coz I'd do myself a right mischief!

Have you started yet then, or is that day still to arrive?
 
I have started yeeha! Well I started last Tuesday then my mum brought dinner in for us, something she rarely does. Her homemade specialilty which I won't name. So Wednesday morning I found myself at McDonalds on Wed morning, Thursday started well, finished badly but Friday.....success!!! I was 18st 1lb yesterday morning, this morning I'm 17st 12lb. Progress at last. The lowest I'vve been since 2013 when I fell pregnant is 17st 10lb so 2lbs to go and that will be a barrier broken. Well I got down to 17st 5lb a few weeks ago but that was a bug so doesn't count. So 17st 9lb would be nice this week.
 
I really need to start wearing my glasses........
 
As you can probably guess from the title, I'm no stranger to starting diaries. I'm overweight and I know I know I need to lose weight. But I'm in denial. I suffer from body dismorphic disorder or whatever you call it, in opposite. I don't see myself as big as I truly am. I look at my profile pic and various other photo's taken over the years and I'm fairly happy with what I see, I have a beautiful face (or at least I used to) and although I've always been curvy, my face carried it. When I look in the mirror I preen myself, suck my tummy in, and as there is no-one standing beside me as a direct comparison, I actually look not too bad, a bit chubby but it's fine.

But it's not.

Someone took a photograph of me the other night and posted it on facebook. My eyes have been opened. I can't believe what I've done to myself. I actually thought I was fine, even maybe fanciable. I was so wrong. I need to lose weight, no more playing with it, I've been hovering around 18st since Feb after losing a stone in January. If I'd stuck to it I could be 14st by now. And then maybe fanciable. So here it is............

No more joking around, I don't want to be that woman. I want to be her in the avvy. And it's not just about the way I look, I keep falling over, I think because my centre of gravity is so messed up (I'm a large apple), my legs and feet and sore al the time, and I have 3 wee boys to look after (on my own!). As well as working and trying to get my singing career underway again. I need energy. In abundance.

You can do it. We're here to support you:)
 
How's it going, my lovely? x
 
Today hasn't been too bad, accidentally ate a slice of toast at lunchtime as I had my boys out for lunch and buttering hot toast for them was too mcuh to bear. Been good since though! I still have a shake to go and need to get some more water in me. Find it incredibly difficult to get the required amount of water on my days off as the kids always want my water, or throw their dummies in it, or power rangers or something. So I tend to drink most of my water at night, then I can't last the full night in bed...........
 
Today hasn't been too bad, accidentally ate a slice of toast at lunchtime as I had my boys out for lunch and buttering hot toast for them was too mcuh to bear. Been good since though! I still have a shake to go and need to get some more water in me. Find it incredibly difficult to get the required amount of water on my days off as the kids always want my water, or throw their dummies in it, or power rangers or something. So I tend to drink most of my water at night, then I can't last the full night in bed...........

That's not too bad at all, well done. :clap: LOL at the Power Rangers in the water! What is it with kids wanting your cup? I'd almost forgotten that - my boy is nearly 19, eek.

I think I remember reading somewhere that if you're busy one of the best ways of getting water in is to keep a glass by the sink and have a glassful every time you go in the kitchen.

Sounds like you could do with a catheter overnight... :D ;)
 
That's what I try to do with the water but even that's challenging lol! Still, another pound overnight despite having painful feet cos I have so much fluid retention. I've got my period so maybe another whoosh at the end of the week? I'm sitting beside my 18 months old typing this, he is covered in Nutella. I'm trying to resist the urge to lick him :D
 
So day 5, woo hoo! I always feel like if i can get 3 or 4 days under my belt, that's half the battle won. Nearly had a catastrophe today when I went to work with no products! So had to go to Costco and buy a box of protein bars, chocolate caramel flavour, edible....just. Still I'm sure they'll come in handy fr those days I just have to have something extra. According to the scales I've lost 6lbs, yay!!!
 
Hello! Hope you don't mind me jumping in.
Well done for everything you've done so far! 6lbs already is amazing :D
 
Hello! Hope you don't mind me jumping in.
Well done for everything you've done so far! 6lbs already is amazing :D

Hey not at all! Day 7 and I'm pleased to say it's looking like a 9lb loss so far, official wi tomorrow :)
 
Hey not at all! Day 7 and I'm pleased to say it's looking like a 9lb loss so far, official wi tomorrow :)

Excellent news! :clap: :clap: :clap:
 
Welcome back Scoot I'm starting my second chapter managed to maintain my first two stone loss I need to lose another 1.5st by end of July and then I will be half way through the year and my target of 7st. Come on now we can do it xx


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Meh - a 9lb weight loss on my scales transferred to a 7lb loss on my cdc's. Never mind, so long as it keeps coming down the way! So my weight in my profile is my scales, the weight in my sig is my cdc's :D xx
 
Hello all! I'm (yet again) a restarter and came across this thread - hope you don't mind if I join in and cheer you on your journey.... (feel free to kick my butt so I stay on mine!)

I don't actually know where I started this time (need to look that up!) but I've been plodding along post surgery (last July, and I lost 6 st that time round and got down to 14st & size 12) - since then I've been back up to 18.06, and now (thanks to constant heavy, water retaining ovarian cysts) I've done my best at sole source and hovered miserably, with much falling off the wagon in discouragement, around 220lbs.... Sorry. Did I say 'join in'? I clearly meant' take over ' :rolleyes: - ahem. Anyway. 7lbs in one week is phenomenal (but I'm secretly taking your scales' weight for the winning wi) well done!!!! That inspires me. I'd lob off an arm of it'd give me 7lbs off in one week hahahaaaa. Keep going hon! x
 
Yes, well done Chick. :clap:

With any luck those 2lbs will add themselves on to next week's "official" loss! (Along with at least 3 more!)
 
just about to go and weigh myself. scales haven't moved since Thursday. If I don't see a loss this morning I'll cry.
 
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