Well i thought I would start my diary so people can read this and I now have a duty to you all to update my diary and when there are good and bad days, I can be as honest as I possibly can...
So where am I? I am now coming to the end of day 4. I don't have lots of energy or feel fab. I feel tired and need food. However, I do feel thinner and I can see my weight loss in my face, already. I do hope that I start to feel better, as in 2009 I lost 5 stones on LL, but I felt absolutely terrible. At 6ft, I wasn't allowed any extra packs as it was deemed that I didn't need any more...well thank goodness for exante. In 2010, I piled all the weight back on, plus a stone. I tried to get back to LL and CD, but my head was too full with stress of running my failing business and trying to keep my house.
Moving on..I am now fully employed 18stone and moving house (renting). So here I am fed up with being fat. I call it fat to myself, not to anyone else. I am cruel to myself as I can't believe I have got this big AGAIN!!
This time around, my gorgeous OH is doing it with me. He has about 2.5 stones to lose but, I am going to press after he is a slim jim lol!!! I so want to be gorgeous and slim for Christmas, so I can shake some shapes on the dance floor hehehehe!!
Today, though, I have found it a struggle. I have discovered that I eat too much (not bingeing, just too much food for my body) as a way of coping with stress. Having been a stress head for my entire adult life, no wonder I have been overweight for all that time. It is only when my life is less stressful and nearly normal that I can lose weight.
I am doing this diary for pure selfish reasons; I need to lose weight as I hate being so fat and I hate how people, who don't know me, think is appropriate to make throw away comments because I am 'big' or 'amazonian'.
I hope that there is someone out there who will read this and think that I am not completely strange (well a little) and that I feel that there is a fellow slim person ready to fight out of their uncomfortable body. Hence why this is my fighting back diary. I WANT TO SLIM!!!! Here is to wearing a size 12/14 and wearing high heels that don't hurt because so much weight is on such small surface area.
Hope you are all having a fab day and thank you for being there...I can't do this without you xxx