12st To Lose... My Journey
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This dairycontains swearing, talk of food, and maybe some sexual content at times
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My name is Poppyand I am a foodaholic!:o At 26year’s young I am as big as a house and I defo feel it! I’m currently living inLondon with my partner and my mother in-law, which is “fun” as I'm sure u willfind out from the many days ahead. I detest my job as accounts assistant, I’vebeen there 3 months and I'm sure if there is a hell my office is what it wouldlook like. My life in general in the last year has gone to pot! I have nochildren because at my at size I can not get pregnant, not that I have beentrying, because I haven't... which is just as well really. What a way to start,my first paragraph is me moaning , on that happy note let me continue....
I have been big aslong as I can remember, it really is as awful and lazy as is sounds. People think I amlazy not doing something before now butI've possibly been on every diet known to man and failed. I guess I chose theExante diet because I like the idea of being taken away from food.. I don'tneed food in my life (1st lie I love food):rolleyes: and I certainlydon't wanna be around it when I am trying to lose weight (truth)! They tellalcoholics not to have even one drink, this is how I need to treat food, for now anyway!
I have such a hugeamount to lose so at the moment, I just can see no light at the end of thetunnel. I can imagine me skinny and I really want to get there but because Ihave failed so many times before I just don't see myself reaching my goal. I’mconstantly being told to stay positive and the fact is I am really positive,its my will power that normally lets me down.:mad:
I admit I’m apicker, I like my food and I like to pick at anything I can, crisps, chocolate,bread, biscuits and really anything that will easily go from packet to mouthwithout any/little cooking involved. Last June I went on holiday abroad. Ohwhat a huge mistake 5 hours on a plane was, good job I didn't need the toiletbecause I was vacuumed suctioned into my seat :eek:. When I actuallygot on holiday it was so hot I looked like I was melting constantly. I felt toself conscious to wear anything that would actually let my body breath, and noway was I letting anyone see my wobbly bits. It was so much hard work, Ibattled with the heat and my insolating body fat every day for 2weeks! Neveragain! So last June when I returned home I went to slimming world and since thatdate I have lost 2st 2lb, before u say well done may I remind you I have 12stone to lose (as of today) its going to take me 6 years to lose the weight..ahhhh!!! Thank god for Exante;).
So here I amcoming to the end of day two, after a rocky day at work yesterday I wanted tostop off at McDonalds on my way home for a much needed food high. After 30minssat in the car park fighting with myself I decided that it was probably not the best idea and drove home! I ameasy to break, I have little will power but I guess you reach a time whenenough is enough! Today has been a breeze really not bad at all, I hope therest of the year is going to be like this, but I very much doubt it!
I would like towish you all success on the Exante diet and I hope you will follow my journeythough the lows and highs to eventually, hopefully (fingers crossed) I canstart to see that light at the end of the tunnel. I cant promise I will writein this diary every day but i will try at least 3 times a week!
Love an hugs,here's to the beginning of 2013!! :D