tomorrow is the end of my second weeks, i will admit i did break and some pickled onions but they i think was the lesser of the two evils the other was some chocolate and not the packet.
i hope i didn't do too much harm eating them but if i did i did but learn from it but i do get nuts around my period and during it wanting werid and wonderful foods.
why am i doing this diet it was surgested on LL f/b page by some kind people as i been so low over christmas and i knew i needed to do something but i did have to wait until a friend went back home as he came for my birthday and celebrate christmas (its not fun being on your own for christmas so i post poned it till jan the 5th my birthday was the 4th).
we went away to york for a few days its a big thing for me as i don't go out on my own, i have panic attacks so this was a huge big step, but it what the dr ordered if you get my drift.
i managed to move around york and it was quiet empty not many people around so i was pleased no rude comments or people banging into me making me feel i dont have the right to be on the same pavement as them as i am so large. i ordered the packs before he left and i knew which day they would come so i could start then.
he wont be coming till may and i am not doing this for anyone else but myself! i want to find the confidance i lost (i keep looking but can't find it yet but i am sure i will find it!).
so i started this journery two weeks tomorrow and alright i can notice the differance i feel brighter but i do sleep or catnap still i can't help it ... i have also started walking on my treadmill once i dusted it down. i do roughtly 30 mins ... 5 mins on 2.5, then 3.o then ten mins on 3.5 then 5 mins @ 3 then 2.5.
i have nerve damage in my feet so its not easy but its improving slightly i just dont like the tingling in the calves which never stops or in the toes, i wished i looked after myself better but i closed myself up and away for nearly 10 yrs and i am so lucky i have a surper surport worker who is helping me to go out but not on my own and i am in control not them in how far i walk or not.
any ways enough for now its not a easy eating programe but its right for me at this moment ... i have set my self a 50lb goal but i do have over 100lbs to lose but i rather deal with a small bump then a huge mountain ... once i get over the first bump i will then focus on the second one ... so tomorrow is the end of my second week and i will again in the morning.
am trying just to weigh once week if it gets bad and i can't keep to it the scales will go in the garage as i dont want to be jumping on them every 5 mins which i have been known to do in the pass.
so now just focus on one day at time, walk not run and i will get there just like the snail slowly does it .....