After slowly creeping up the scales for the last 10+ years and believing that I was always going to be "the fat one" so what did it matter, I have finally decided to stop playing the victim and take control of my weight problem.
I have dieted before with varying success and am gradually becoming more active, but it has always seemed like such a long and difficult journey to get to my ultimate goals of fitting into those jeans I loved when I was 16 and possibly one day, running a marathon!
A couple of weeks ago a new friend told me about her weight loss through LL. 6 stones in 4.5 months??? Surely this was too good to be true?? I always thought that there were no easy-fixes, that losing weight was going to be some sort of nightmare that you'd have to endure for months or years as punishment for letting yourself get into "this state" in the first place. But....after LOTS of research, I realise that there are people out there who have lost huge amounts of weight healthily, and have gone on to maintain that weight loss for life.
So here I am, on day one of my Exante journey.
I am terrified. For lots of reasons; What if I can't get past the first couple of days? What if I am starving all the time and become a constant grump and can't concentrate at work? What if I have no energy? What if I don't lose as much weight as I want to and become demotivated? What if I do lose a huge chunk of weight and put it all back on again?
But I am also reeeeeally excited.
For the first time in my life I feel like I have a goal that I can and will achieve. I have dreamed about not being overweight for so long and now I genuinely feel like I could be closer than ever to this dream. I am already beginning to talk about when and not if....
One hot vanilla shake with a shot of coffee for breakfast, a surprisingly tasty vegetable soup for lunch, a peppermint tea, 3 litres of water and more trips to the loo in one afternoon than I can ever remember making and I'm still on track. It's pasta carbonara for tea, I'm going to imagine that it's been delivered by my favourite Italian takeaway when I take my first bite and hopefully it will feel like a treat.
My stomach is beginning to rumble and I have that shaky/need some sugar feeling but I am going to do this
So here goes...I'm looking forward to being on here for the next few months as I make my journey alongside so many of you. I'm sure I'll need all the support I can get as I am in no doubt that it will be one of the toughest things I've ever done, but I'm ready so bring it on