X's Restart Diary: Xmas & Beyond!
Okay, so I started off this diet in a great mood (3 weeks ago now, I think), I lost 7 pounds! Then.... Week 2 & I lost nothing, felt bloated, headaches. It felt like a delayed reaction to the low amount of carbs. Fueled by me not losing a single pound - I ate. I ate, ate, ate & then ate some more. It was only for three days but it was pretty ridiculous. I gained every single pound back. Plus 2 extra. Great.
So, here I am again. Starting tomorrow. No crazy goals, just one stone at a time. No - one day at a time. Losing is losing and that's all that matters. I need to stop fretting about the scales so much. I am going to lose weight if I just stay on track and don't eat out of disappointment.
The only problem is that my darling boyfriend bought me size 12 jeans. They are so.... tiny. Oh boy. So tiny. He said he wanted to get me something to work towards fitting in to, but I feel like they are so out of reach, I am just so huge. They are staring at me, taunting me!
I carry all of my weight on my tummy, so going down in sizes takes a long time for both tops & bottoms. I do however have a size 18 pair of high waisted jeans which are my next goal. I'd like to fit into them by October, ideally. I am an uncomfortable, bulgy size 20 at the moment. I think even at my goal of 12st I will probably still be a large size 14, certainly no smaller. Being apple shaped sucks!
Anyway, hi. I'm not very good at keeping up with diaries (the reason I didn't start one in the first place), but I think it's probably going to be useful, especially in the first few weeks of restarting.
One good thing amongst all of this blabber: I ordered more packs today & I LOVE the carbonara! :D