Hi, I'm Cate and I'm gutted to be back posting on Minimins, in the nicest possible way!
In February 2011 I started Lipotrim and lost 3st5lbs in 3 months getting down to 12st10lbs, the lightest I'd been since falling pregnant with my son in 2003 when I weighted 13st2lbs, still a good 2st too heavy for my height. Having lost that, I kept the bulk of it off for a year as I was trying to get down to 11st but never really got focused again and didn't lose anymore. Then I went through a difficult time personally and my weight shot back up to where I'd started. A year ago, weighing 16st4lbs, I decided to give Exante a try (weirdly, it was a year ago to the day, today!) but I never really got started properly although I've consistently had a supply of shakes and bars in the house and have always ordered another supply when my stocks ran out but I've used them for convenience and not as part of a disciplined diet. So, here I am, another year on, and I'm up to 16st12lbs. Aaarrrgghh!!
I am soooooo fed up with myself and this excess weight is really impacting on every area of my life. I don't want to go out and socialise; I feel like a frump as I wear the same boring clothes all the time as I won't buy an extensive size 18 wardrobe when I have so many size 16s and 14s from when I lost weight the last time - and I really don't want to be a size 18! I have a new business venture that I want to pursue but as it's in the health, wellness and anti-ageing sector I don't feel that I am a credible role model at the moment and feel that people won't listen to me. I'm lucky in that my face is holding up OK as I age so the anti-ageing bit in relation to wrinkles I can carry off but the rest of me just doesn't match up. I did something to the ligaments in my left knee a few weeks ago and it's taking forever to get better which I'm sure is not helped by carrying all this excess weight. I hate being so physically debilitated as it makes me feel like an old woman and, having had some experience of this now, I can't bear the thought of, as I get older, being someone who always has something physically wrong with them that makes it painful for them to move around. I'm single and although I really don't want a relationship at the moment if I decided that I did then there's no way I'd have the confidence to get onto the dating scene at my current weight.
So, enough is enough and I'm finally back and feeling in a more positive frame of mind to tackle this seriously, again, and this time I want to get to goal. I've been wanting to start since September but just couldn't get going. However, I am taking my son to Centreparcs in February next year, along with about eight other families from his primary school, and I'm going to be mortified to be in a swimming costume in front of the other mums and dads at this weight so I have to take drastic action NOW to hopefully lose AT LEAST 2.5 stone but hopefully more. Today, to get me into the right mindset, I've been reading my posts on here from my Lipotrim journey and it has taken me right back to the difficulties of the early days but then the euphoria of the first weigh in and then how it did get so much easier and time really began to fly. I know I can do this; I just have to want it enough, and right now I really feel like I do.
So, day one under my belt and it's been fine. Here we go again. Wish me luck.