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    The weighty whimsical world of ED.

    Oh how I have missed this place

    Infact, im pretty sure I left my sanity here when I went AWOL last Summer.


    I could scribble an autobiography sized entry on what iv been up to, what iv been through, what's gone wrong and what's gone right. But, above all and everything, it's simple.


    Iv used everything as an excuse to eat very bad foods far too much. Not a little bit naughty some of the time. Worryingly naughty, and most of the time.


    So to throw it all in a nutshell, I started Exante 1st January 2013 utterly miserable, obese, weighing 14st 12lb. Zero confidence and as many friends to match because of this. I'd hide as much as possible and walk looking at the floor. I'd squirm at the thought of leaving the house and hated anybody seeing me. Sounds a little OTT but you feel what you feel don't you.


    I stuck rigidly, strictly 100% TS until the end of May, then had breaks, got back on, so on so on until reaching goal soon after. It was an amazing time, and amazing feeling. Of course I had all these ideas, plans, promises to myself. I gave up smoking in Sept and maintained really well until October, then had a bit of a rough time and slowly I have gained since then.


    Its funny how each tiny lb was so important on the scales going down, but then going back up, I didn't care less. I watched every lb, kept weighing throughout the months gaining but it was like I'd become numb again. I guess I always had that "I know I can lose when I want to" mentality. I had more worrying things going on and the scales didn't scare me. I often felt at night I was stuffing food in on purpose, for no purpose. It's very scary and hard to explain actually. I'm not sure why iv undone my hard work. I know it's behaviour I'm going to be getting help with. The binges have been crazy, out of people's sight. Almost like I was rebelling, punishing.


    So much for not scribbling a huge entry eh!


    So Iv realised at the very least, that I shouldn't have strayed from the forum, because it was always 80% of the reason I succeeded last year. Iv realised I need to remove food from my diet at the moment, because things became a mess. I need to address issues much, much deeper than dieting, while I'm busy dieting


    I am so sooooo excited to be back on the wagon, on the way back to my happy place. It's obvious Im going to say I will not abuse the position again and gain the weight back a second time. But seriously, I sure as hell won't go through the last 6 months again. I really have learnt a shed load, so on some level, I'm happy I can take that away. I cook really healthy meals and learnt lots about nutrition and exercise, for me and my family, but my sugar obsession (chocolate and haribo) took over me in the end. Iv learnt I am so damn complex lol.


    I get such a warm happy feeling when i think back to my time here last year. I always said Exante was such a comfort to me, and I feel like I'm now in the flurry arms of a big virtual hug hehe


    Now down to the juicy stuff eh! Weight, goals, photos! Ok so I'm 5ft 7" and need to be 9st 10lb - 10st 2lb to be at my happy place. Well, I say that now, but really, at the time I still thought I was fat. Ridiculous. Looking at the photos now I could run back to 2013 and kick my ass!!! Anyway, I weighed last week and was..... As high in the 11s as you can get. Which today probably makes me in the 12s. But, I don't want to see that, so I'm not weighing lol! Instead, I will just get on with 100% TS and weigh on Mondays. My only plan right now is to use up all my packs. After this I will know if I'm staying on Exante a little longer or switching to something else. In all honesty, I think I need to remove food and sort my self out.


    I hope the photos have uploaded ok. The photos are my journey last year. Start weight 14.12 end weight 9.13 in the photos, and different weights I between as I shrunk. Can't wait to go back


    Im not going to read over everything iv just written or i will end up editing and deleting bits! I have a lot of catching up to do around here, and im soooooo happy for my friends who stayed, and succeeded, and are still doing amazingly!!! Im never straying from the boards again. it feels so good to be back already xx
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    Hi Ed. I'm really sorry to read that you've put weight back on but am sure that all is not lost. You've got down to goal before and you'll do it again. You're far better at doing exante than I am! Also, we've both got Carrie as inspiration - not that I ever envisage myself doing insanity. You've got lots of friends on here Ed and we'll all be here for you.
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    Start weight:14st 2lb
    Total loss April to December 2013 - 32 lb
    2014 restart
    Starting weight 12st 12lb (18lb gain) Target loss 68 lb
    Week 1: 3lb loss (12st 9lb)
    Week 2: 2lb loss (12st 7lb)
    Week 3: 2lb loss (12st 5lb)
    Week 4: 2lb loss (12st 3lb)

    Short term goals
    • ​1stone loss (11st 12lb)
    • to get into the 11s
    • to be classed as 'overweight' and not 'obese' - 11st 4lb - BMI 29.9
    • 10% loss
    • 2 stone loss (10st 12lb)
    • 15% loss
    • 2.5 stone loss (10st 3lb)
    • 3 stone loss (9st 12lb)



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    Current BMI: 28.8
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    Hello Ed, sorry you've put some of the weight back on. Well done for recognising you need to rein it in before you put it all back on hun.

    Like Lynne says, I too know you'll get back to goal. So onwards and downwards xx
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    Originally 12 stones 8 lbs
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    Welcome back!!! Loads of hugs and kisses! You have been missed. Well done for plucking up the courage to return as we all know it can be so difficult admitting we made mistakes. First step is always the hardest, and you've done it. Now final journey to eternal slimdom and a healthier happier you xxx
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    *hugs you tight* I'm glad to see you back here and that you've not let it get completely out of hand. Ok so you've put some back, but you haven't put the whole lot back on and you've managed to realise what's happening and put a stop to it before that happened. You know you can lose the weight so that's not a problem, you just need to get back into the mindset.
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    Hi ED
    Sorry you've struggled but welcome back and you've done it once you can do it again! Carries feet are going to be sore from kicking mine, and your butts :-)
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    Target of 9 st reached with Exante! ...............Until i started the IVF/ICSI process and my weight crept up to 10 st 7 lbs then i managed to gain 5 st while pregnant. (I did eat whatever i wanted)
    I am trying to lose as much of this gain as possible by May 28th when i go to Santorini for my brother in laws wedding. Then i will continue on my journey back to 9st on my return.
    After being 9st and absolutely loving it, there is no way i will stay this big!!
    I still can't believe that after 6 years, i have my baby. He is amazing.



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    I've only got wee size 4s! But big muscles! Grrrr xxx
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    She's back! I remember reading your entire diary and being amazed by what you achieved. You can do this! x
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    Diary link here

    Slow and steady wins the race


    Mini Goals
    69kg (10st 12.1) BMI 26.6 - Done
    66kg (10st 5.5) BMI 25.5 -
    63kg (9st 12.9) BMI 24.3 -
    60kg (9st 6.3) BMI 23.1 -
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    Ha ! Found you
    Will catch up later x
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    Ultimate Goal - To be able to look down and see my bikini line to shave it, and not have to do it from memory

    Goal 1 - 5 x 30 mins exercise a week - 5 - 5.5 - 4 - 5 done and ongoing
    Running - to run for 30 mins .
    So far 6/10

    Goal 2 - BMI under 35 - 16st 13lbs - by the end of Jan 2014 Done 28/01/14
    Goal 3 - BMI of 32.5 - 15st 10lbs - by the end of Feb 2014 = face peel Done 28/02/2014
    Goal 4 - BMI of 30 - 14st 7lbs - by the end of March 2014 = rapid lash
    Goal 5 - Overweight - 14st 6lbs.
    Goal 6 - Into the 13's = I think it will be Insanity.. unless I find something else
    Goal 7 - BMI of 27.5 13st 4lbs
    Goal 8 - BMI of 25 12st. ???? NOT SURE OF THIS ONE... MAYBE GET TO 12ST 7LBS AND GOAL 9
    Goal 9 - Feel comfy in a size 14.
    Goal 10 - Maintain Goal 9

    If you are tired of starting over, then stop giving up !!










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    Awwwwwwwwww you guys!!!! xxxxx

    What a lush welcome. and to think I was nervous Thanks for being so lovely to me.

    For me, I had such a great journey last year, that it became harder to post on here with my secret failings and feelings nobody knew were happening but me. I was embarrassed that I'd not stuck to all the things I'd vowed, and it spun out of control alone. Done now though and jeez am I relived that's over. So thank you for still being here, and thank you Marge and Carrie for your contact recently elsewhere... Made me have a good think and return

    Yawn, I'm still as boringly deep as ever I'm afraid sorry!

    So Day 1 is done hurrah. Along with giving up smoking, I also gave up fizzy pop completely. Tonight iv decided I may get some incase it helps. Some of you might remember my last journey, and if you do, you will remember I'm a vanilla shake and coke zero monster hehe.

    I am hungry, but damn I'm determined. Spring is around the corner and I can't hide in a all my wintery layers forever. The weight has stayed off my face and has been kind to my upper body, but my arms, hips and ass... Have certainly taken the bulk lol. So I guess the weight gain is almost hidden, but obviously noticeable. Nobody has commented but I walk around just cringing at what they might be thinking when they see me. It will be fabulous to lose the 2st, whip off my coat and be like nothing ever changed ha!

    I'm doing this secretly at the moment, but I like that. Infact I love that. For the first time in months thus is just mine and I control this

    Anyway, I can't half ramble on. Bring on the size 4 ass kicking!!! Night all xxx
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    Great to have you back ED you have been missed - that weigh you put on will be off in no time you have done so well before you know you can do this again - you were such an inspiration last year - so pleased your back x
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    Hi ED found your thread. Don't think of the weight you gained only think of what you lost. You are starting again from a very different position, less to lose and loads of knowledge to help you lose it. Enjoy your shakes you will soon be well on your way. X
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    MAINTENANCE (9st 12lb)




    Jan '13 weight 11st 7lb Jan '14 weight 10st 4lb

    Feb '13 weight 10st 13lb. Feb'14 weight 10st 4lb

    Mar '14 weight 10st 7lb. Mar '14 weight 10st 5lb

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    Good to see you back Ed, in the best possible way
    Life is a funny old thing eh ?
    I know I will always have to keep an eye on my weight. Always. That's just part of my life make up.
    I expect most people who have been overweight at some point in their lives, will have to keep a check on their weight, so I know I am in the majority
    You are still nearly 3 stone down from your heaviest
    And you will get back down again to where you need to be.
    All we can do is keep trying until we get there, and keep experimenting as how to stay there !

    Welcome back Ed, and now, lets be seeing less o ya - in the best possible way !!
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    Ultimate Goal - To be able to look down and see my bikini line to shave it, and not have to do it from memory

    Goal 1 - 5 x 30 mins exercise a week - 5 - 5.5 - 4 - 5 done and ongoing
    Running - to run for 30 mins .
    So far 6/10

    Goal 2 - BMI under 35 - 16st 13lbs - by the end of Jan 2014 Done 28/01/14
    Goal 3 - BMI of 32.5 - 15st 10lbs - by the end of Feb 2014 = face peel Done 28/02/2014
    Goal 4 - BMI of 30 - 14st 7lbs - by the end of March 2014 = rapid lash
    Goal 5 - Overweight - 14st 6lbs.
    Goal 6 - Into the 13's = I think it will be Insanity.. unless I find something else
    Goal 7 - BMI of 27.5 13st 4lbs
    Goal 8 - BMI of 25 12st. ???? NOT SURE OF THIS ONE... MAYBE GET TO 12ST 7LBS AND GOAL 9
    Goal 9 - Feel comfy in a size 14.
    Goal 10 - Maintain Goal 9

    If you are tired of starting over, then stop giving up !!










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    Hi Ed. Glad you had a good day today. Hope tomorrow goes well too!
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    Start weight:14st 2lb
    Total loss April to December 2013 - 32 lb
    2014 restart
    Starting weight 12st 12lb (18lb gain) Target loss 68 lb
    Week 1: 3lb loss (12st 9lb)
    Week 2: 2lb loss (12st 7lb)
    Week 3: 2lb loss (12st 5lb)
    Week 4: 2lb loss (12st 3lb)

    Short term goals
    • ​1stone loss (11st 12lb)
    • to get into the 11s
    • to be classed as 'overweight' and not 'obese' - 11st 4lb - BMI 29.9
    • 10% loss
    • 2 stone loss (10st 12lb)
    • 15% loss
    • 2.5 stone loss (10st 3lb)
    • 3 stone loss (9st 12lb)



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    Thank you all so much, You have made me feel like i never left

    Day 2.

    I dont think i will ever understand myself. the complex mind of a flab fighter eh? its funny. whether I'm obese or skinny, i can never understand how i become the other one. when I'm obese, i cant understand how i had the strength and will power t become skinny. when I'm skinny, i cant understand how i had the mindlessness to become obese again. This time around was no different. last year at goal, and for a while after, i couldn't understand how i Ever got obese. Then as months passed and i mindlessly ate and gained, i couldn't understand how i resisted food so long and how i would ever stop. I felt like that right up until this weekend. Then, coming here and talking it out, admitting everything and off loading all my secrets and errors, something clicked again. now i feel strong again, i really do. Just like that.

    "Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free." I believe this

    So this morning I bought some Coke Zero but Havnt opened it yet. I admit I have a tiny drop of sugar free squash in my water but next to no calories and I will risk the citric acid for now. It helped me drink loads yesterday, and this time around I want to drink lots of water rather than lots of the coke zero. The other difference in this journey is the scales. I was a daily weigher. This time I'm not going to be. Mondays only

    OH is working night shifts so I need to get him to take a photo of me before work, So I have a starting photo again. Comparing photos as I shrink really helps. I did take a full body shot myself this morning and wowee I look so puffy and large lol. Which is ok because that's the last time il look like this What's awful though is a full body photo I took just in December in a Christmas jumper. I was slim then... And in just 2 months I have tipped over into fat. I agreed with Marge I will always always need to keep on top of my weight. I got scared and lazy. I started to think me and everyone else was getting obsessed, and funnily enough those thoughts came around the same time I started to give up. I now know wholeheartedly that 'obsessed is the word lazy people use to describe the dedicated.' I want to be dedicated again

    Feeling ok today. Took some measurements today and have gained lots. 42" hips 32" waist 26" thighs eeeeek. Again, that's the last time I will see those numbers

    The sun is peeking out today and what a change it brings to the mood. More reason to get the flab off before the weather heats up! Have a great day all! xx
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