Sam is back on it and determined! - Exante attempt # 476 :)
Ah, minimins, I've missed you :D
This is my umpteenth return to the site, and to Exante, but I'm in it for the long haul this time (again lol)
My weight snuck up to my biggest ever recently - 19st 7lbs/273 lbs. I've managed to get down to 18st 4lbs through trying to curb my eating but then found that I was falling back in to old habits, so have turned to Exante to break the cycle and finally shift some of blubber for good!
I'm finally taking responsibility for my weight, and the health conditions that it is affecting - namely arthritis in my left knee and PCOS (cysts on my ovaries). Both of these issues is going to require treatment, in the form of a knee replacement within the next 10 years or so, and possibly surgical removal/draining of cysts, possibly within the next few months depending on how bad an upcoming scan shows the situation is.
Suffice to say, being twice my ideal body weight isn't ideal when you're looking at the business end of going under the knife! So to make things safer for myself and to lower any risks, I'm now at a point in my life where I can't just shrug my weight off and ignore it, comforting myself with food.
It's time to look my obesity in the face, kick it in the goolies and send it packing! :whoopass:
In short - I'm sorting myself out, no more messing, no more half-arsed efforts, no more "I'm-going-back-on-Exante-and-I-mean-it-then-failing-by-day-2" stories.
I'm 27 in August this year, and I am adamant that it will be my last 'fat' birthday. I WILL be a size 8 by my 28th lol
I would like to look at starting a family with my long-suffering partner Andy within the next few years, depending on the PCOS situation though obviously, but may need treatment and am simply not prepared to waste any more time putting off losing weight only to be told I need to do it anyway to get fertility treatment. So yeah, I'll just get on with it now and save myself some time later down the line :D
I'm angry at myself for allowing myself to get to this point, and have no one to blame but myself and lack of control (and also, I believe I have (still have??) a slight food addiction, which has excelled itself recently as I have TWICE compulsively eaten until the point of vomiting). But instead of wallowing, and again, turning to comfort food, I am going to use my frustration as motivation to just keep going.
I have been on Exante for the past few days and am now at the end of Day 3, so am almost through the initial few days. Day 4 tomorrow which is meant to be the most difficult and I have a 12 hour shift at work. Oh dear lol I'm hoping I won't be too bad. Day 2 has been the hardest for me so far, and almost broke me, food thoughts and cravings were running rampant and I even thought about jacking the whole thing in, hence the "failing-by-day-2" comment above. I managed to get through it somehow and had some low carb high protein food which kept me on the wagon, success!
I plan to be on Exante Total Solution, 100% until 18th August, when I am due to have a week off work as both mine and my partner's birthdays are around that time, and may (or may not) have a few days of conventional (but healthy) food, so not going completely nuts and scoffing buckets of chocolate just for the sake of it. I would then have to go through the whole getting-in-to-ketosis phase again but it may help to kick-start my weight loss again which may have started to slow a lot by that point. But I'll decide what I'm going to do about all that nearer the time.
Anyway, that's me. Determined. In control. Doing it :superwoman:
Please feel free to comment, say hello, offer advice, and keep me on the straight and narrow!