Hello fellow exanteans!
Just a little rant from me to get this off my chest - just found out OH has dated THE BIGGEST (naughty word) in our office.
Just to put this into perspective - I'm 17 stone 12, 5 ft 11; she's the skinniest smallest little thing I've ever seen in my life!
1. I hate my height
2. I clearly hate my weight
I have the lowest self confidence of anyone you've ever met and now I feel a little bit like second best, I'm not sure what happen between them but when I asked him (jokingly) why visually he prefers me to her he refused to answer it! Ok, so I know it was an unfair question but he could if just paid it some lip service! I have always compared myself against smaller people, that's just the way it is.
In addition, when we got together she topped herself and he spent 2 whole days with her! (He was her team leader at the time but my team leader would never have done that!) I'm not sure why she did it but what if she wanted him and his attention?!
Sorry for my rambling, I know it's only paranoia but I can't help really hating myself for letting myself get this big! Why can't I be as tiny as she is?!
Needless to say my confidence is now through the floor, through the basement (I don't have a basement), and right at the core of the earth :-(
Hey, sorry this is quite a late reply, Ive only just joined. Sorry you are feeling this way :( I can relate a little in that my OH's ex (who he is still living with until he sells the house!!) is a size 8 yoga teacher! I sucks! The only thing I can suggest is to channel all your feelings about this into your weight loss, let it be another reason to spur you on. And you dont need me to tell you that the more you lose the better you will feel about yourself - no more earth's core!! x
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