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    Diet: Cambridge
    Height: 5ft10in
    Start Date: 14/05/2014
    Start Weight: 14st7lb
    Current Weight: 14st7lb
    Goal Weight: 12st7lb
    Goal Date: 14th July 2014


    BMI Information:
    Start BMI: 29.1
    Current BMI: 29.1
    Goal BMI: 25.1


    Statistics:
    Weight to Lose: 2st0lb
    % Lost 0%

    Feeling Low

    Hello,

    I'm sorry for such a negative post. And nothing anybody can say can make me feel better.. I think I just need to get out how I'm feeling.

    I need to cry I think. A really big cry. I got to a size 14 a few years ago and was unhappy so I did Cambridge and lost a lot of weight and everything was all good... now I've put it all back on and more. I'm now an 18/20. I THINK I weigh more than 15 stone but I've no idea because I think if I get on the scale I will feel much more depressed.

    I know I am bigger as I have seen recent photos and my clothes no longer fit.

    I have a holiday booked for 3rd November.. so I do have time to lose a stone or so if I redo the very low calorie diet again. I've used slim and save before, and I have some left over cambridge products.

    I guess I just feel vile. I'm visiting my family this weekend and I feel every time I see them, they get more disgusted with me. I don't see them often so every time I go I can tell their shock at my size.

    I'm also really conscious in front of my partner. I cover myself up all the time and I just don't feel like getting close to him anymore. He must be disgusted with me too... It's horrible that feeling isn't it? I feel so conscious eating in front of people because I think they must think "how greedy is she".

    I'm a bit of a secret eater.. I don't think people understand HOW i've put the weight on because they never see me eat loads. But I eat food when they aren't around. It's an emotional thing I think.

    So I'm desperately starting the Very Low Calorie Diet again on Sunday. I'm visiting my family this weekend so I will just eat "healthy" and cut down the carbs so that it isn't a big shock to my system again on Monday... I'm so SCARED that I'm not going to do it. It's scary being this unhealthy and ugly isn't it?

    I do feel ugly. Which is awful. Someone posted a photo of me today and I wanted to vomit... When I think I lost all that weight and did this to myself?

    I suppose this is a bit of a desperate post.. I do feel better to see it on paper. I never realised how depressed I was about it until I was kept awake all last night so upset after seeing my reflection (which I avoid like the plague!). I dont want to weigh myself for a week or so. i know I won't see a loss but I really can't face it right now. x

    **Loose a stone**
    **Work Uniform doesn't leave marks on my stomach**
    *Loose 2 stone**

    Fit into my dress from 2009
    **LOSE 3 STONE**

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    I don't think there anything I can say to really help but just want to send virtual hugs? Hope you find something that works for you in the long term, x

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    Diet: Sonoma
    Height: 5ft5in
    Start Date: September 4, 2012
    Start Weight: 172lb
    Current Weight: 147lb
    Goal Weight: 129lb
    Goal Date: Feb 14, 2015


    BMI Information:
    Start BMI: 28.6
    Current BMI: 24.5
    Goal BMI: 21.5


    Statistics:
    Total Weight Loss: 25lb
    Weight to Lose: 18lb
    % Lost 14.53%
    Feeling much like you at the moment. Took RawrGirl 22 years of yo-yo dieting before she finally hit goal, kept it off for about a year, then gained it all back this summer. horribly disgusted and frustrated with self. Maybe we can be support mates and encourage each other to get back to goal and keep it off this time around.
    Blimp to Bombshell to Blimp Again: RawrGirl's 2nd Weight Loss Diary -- would love a support buddy


    RawrGirl's Weight Loss Goal: <135 (Dec 21, 2012): ***129*** -- DONE!!!

    Maintained for about a year and a half, then gained who knows how much over this past summer. Refuse to get on the scale, but am guessing around 150lb.


    RawrGirl's first mini-goal: Get under 31 inch waist and out of 150's

    RawrGirl's second mini-goal: Get under 30 inch waist and out of 140's

    RawrGirl's Christmas Goal: Get to 29 inch waist and out of 130's









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