Georgiestar

I really simpathise with you, i can only say try to stay positive, ocupie yourself do something you enjoy i mean there are short courses out there to help you relax, there not just the usual subjects there are courses like meditation and relaxation and courses that focas on the mind you just need to ask people. also try not to bottle things up talk to your family and friends about how you are feeling. I really hope this helps. also just wonderd do you live with your parents? if you do do you get on with them or are you finding it difficalt to live at home?

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goal: stay below 10 stone

goal: go to the gym at least 3 times a week

goal : it would be nice to fit in my size 10 trousers but im not too botherd anymore if I don't !!

goal : cut out all junk food until the wedding I go to at 1/11/08

caws

Take care and hugs

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Lisa Bigger Bum

Hello

I am only going to say the same as everyone else, just take care of yourself and look at all the love thats here for you. Never ever think you are a burden to anyone, we all have issues of some sort and we just need a little help sometime. It just takes some of us a little longer to understand the support and information that has been given to us. So many people tried to help me when I was low and I just couldnt/wouldnt take it in, then one day 'click' and it starts creeping into the parts of us that have shut down. It will for you too I promise.

You will get through this you are a strong woman youve proved that by talking this way to us. Print out your post and take it to the doctors and just let them read it, its easier having things written down and they can see how serious you are.

I too have been to see a counsellor and it really does help, I got mine through my doctors refering me.

Big hugs to you, just stay strong, love Lisa xx

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LighterLife 09/06/08 - Today. So far Lost 57lbs
Sept/Oct - Had a bit of a blip, fell off the wagon for a few weeks, however, back on track now.

cateka

Okay, so I saw the doctor this morning.
Suprisingly it went better than I thought - she immidiatly identified that my problem was with my bingeing not purgeing, following my theory that if I cut out the bingeing, the purgeing will leave on its own accord.

She gave me some antidepressants and a book to read about the disorder. To be honest though, I'm not feeling much better at all. I binged today regardless, and purged too. I feel really low, and on top of it all, I'm not going to be seeing my boyfriend for nearly two weeks due to our work shifts, which always brings me down
Oh well, can't be cured overnight I suppose.

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hanloje

I hope that you can get through this, sounds like you need more 'professional' help than just a GP; you sound like you are suffering from depression but the anti-depressants will not work if you are taking them and bringing them back up so please please try .... if you manage to take them you will slowly start to feel more positive.

Please please take care of yourself, you've admitted your problem on here to us all so that's got to be the first step. If you're struggling go back to your GP and insist that they do something else for you... you are very young, with your whole life to live and enjoy ahead of you. You CAN get through this, it'll be tough, but it is possible.

Sending lots of love and positive vibes for you to start to feel a little more in control. x

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Silence

You have to be strong hun! I know you won't magically be cured overnight, but you won't be cured if you don't make a sincere effort. You've taken the first step, and thats good. Now you need to carry on.
Wishing you all the luck in the universe!!!

~Silence~

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Hazelnut

I would really recommend seeing a counsellor... it's a bit weird the first time you go, but after a while you wonder how you ever got by without it! My counsellor is the loveliest person in the world, I always feel that she is on my side and trying to help me, and no matter what I say she never seems to judge me.

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Frijj

I agree you probably need more professional help. Your profile doesn't say where you live but I know my friend with anorexia has a great counsellor & also goes to a support group too, all through a hospital referral.
Please stay strong hun & take care of yourself.
Maybe try to find some local support yourself through the eating disorder organisations. I found a couple on the internet for you but there's loads more if you google it.
anorexia bulimia care support eating disorders
and
Eating Disorders Support - Buckinghamshire
Look after yourself & let us know how you get on.
Loads of love.

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10lbs lost ACHIEVED 23/05/08
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In the 14's (20lbs lost) ACHIEVED 01/08/08
2 stone gone ACHIEVED 14/11/08
30lbs lost
In the 13's
40lbs lost
3 stone gone
In the 12's
50lbs lost (1/2 way there! )

shrinkingannie

Dont worry about binging and purging today it wont go away immediately - and to be honest I think they come as a pair - it is not as easy as deciding not to binge and therefore you wont purge, a binge can vary, it is not always a lot of food, just what feels too much for you.

The anti-depressants are to improve your seretonin levels which are often low in bulimics and should help a lot. I do think counseling would be a big help if you can arrange some

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shrinking on hold while baby grows - eating healthy at all times, bubs does not like chocolate!

I am choosing to eat healthy nutritious food
I am choosing to eat like an adult, to eat the foods that are right for me.
I have a normal selective appetite

cateka

Thank you all so much, all this support is very overwhelming, brings a tear to the eye to think so many people would take their time to send this love and support, people I don't even know. I am very grateful.


Actually, I am starting to feel a little bit better. My food consumption for today involved 2 binges, the total food being;


2 Rijvitas
1 Bannana
1 90 calorie cheese snack
1 98 calorie kellogs snack (can't remember name of either brands)
2 Bowls of soup
2 Bowls of porridge
2 cupcakes
2 cream cakes


Sick as this sounds, that is a relatively small binge for one day to me, so I am proud of this.

As well of this I only threw up twice. The day before, I threw up 6 times, can you see how this is very significant?

And I've done an hour of Yoga which involved a very intensive abdominal workout which always leaves a good taste in my mouth. Yesterday I did an hour on my stepper, so I am introducing the exercise slowly back into the system.

Also, if anyone else suffers from serious bingeing my doctor gave me a book called "Overcoming Binge Eating" by Dr. Christopher G. Fairburn. I reccomend you grab a copy - it was frightening seeing my entire condition written down in a book with all the experiences and development in the exact order I came across it. Very helpful.

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caws

That's because you aren't alone - I know it can feel like you're the only person in the world going though it but you aren't.

Glad you're feeling a little better.

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Mixxi

I've read this thread and I'm so glad you're getting help. I've gone through periods of bulimia and the temptation is always there. It's so easy to fall into the binging and purging cycle but so difficult to get out of it. At the moment I've been going through this cycle but I must never be able to get it all up as it's only helped me maintain and I rarely lose any weight whilst binging and purging. I'm going to the doctor next week and specifically asking to be referred to a nutritionist as I feel a bit like I've forgotten how to eat properly. Maybe you should ask to be referred to a nutritionist too? I'm sorry to start on about myself in your thread but I do understand where you're coming from and how awful what you're going through is *hugs*. If you want to talk I'm here xxxx

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• Get to 10 stone by Nov 8th (my 18th) ~ DONE!
• 9 stone 7 pounds by Nov 8th ~ DONE!
  
• 9 stone by Xmas
  

Isis

Hi Cateka

I've also read the whole thread and I wanted to say how good it is to see you posting and feeling a bit better about things and that you did go to your GP.

Must admit, (with my professional head on here), did your GP suggest any referral to other support services for you as well as prescribe anti-d's and recommend a book? Just wondering

The anti-depressants could be of benefit to you short or long term if you can let your body absorb them and give it a little time hun? It can take roughly 2 weeks to start really feeling the lift.

I have to agree with other members here who have suggested some specific and specialised counselling to support you. I hope you can access that if you chose to.

If you decide to go for that and have any probs finding appropriate services in your area, then you know there are plenty of us on here who could help you with that issue and do it gladly.

Take care honey,

Lacey..xx

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cateka

Hello everybody, thanks for all of the support and helpful comments, its really reassuring that you all seem to have an idea what it is like to feel this way even if you haven't had to stoop as low as me. Mixxi, I am so unbelivably sorry you are going through this too - I'm sure you know if I could do anything to take the burden off you I would, I hope you start to feel better soon my love.


Today I am actually feeling a lot better, I'm on my 4th day of anti-depressants, and I'm starting to feel not happier but ...calmer. I did two hours of exercise split into an hour before work and an hour after work which has helped me a great deal. I saw someone mention in another forum something about 'little and often', the method of breaking your meals down into little parts and eating them often I guess. I tried this today and with great success - I hardly felt hungry at all today, and it was almost like, I still enjoyed the food... but I wasn't that bothered? I just kept saying to myself 'don't worry, you can come back to it in a minute' everytime I got anxious after eating the small part of a meal. Normally eating anything would act as a trigger for bingeing to me, so I was suprised to find I could have so many small meals without bingeing.


Another awsome fact - this is the first time in over half a year I have made it through a day without vomiting! I seriously want to throw a parade for myself, I never thought this day would come, and I don't care if it falls apart tomorrow because I made it through TODAY.


Thank you all so much for everything, I might not be 'cured' so to speak but I really feel like I'm on route.


I have to go back to my GP in two weeks to see if I should take more pills or be referred to a specialist. I'm not too worried either way

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cateka

Oh, and food for today was;

2 weetabix
1 bannana
1 slice of toast
1 slice of pineapple
1 slice of watermelon
6 slices of cucumber
3 spoonfulls of kidney beans with lettuce and chilli sauce
2 pieces of sushi
1 cheese sandwich
1 mini pain au chocolate (only 120 calories, madness!)

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