Hezz123

eeeek..ate maltesers tonigt!! but only 4!! thats ok......right?????????

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munkypooh

Only 4 isn't a problem!
4 packets would be......

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Hezz123

Had a really horrible dream last night that my boyfriend slept with my (very skinny) best friend because he preffered her size. I know it was only a dream but its really got me down and now im thinking, why is he with me when there are so many gorgeous ppl out there? But what gets me the most is WHY DOES MY WEIGHT BOTHER ME SOOOOO MUCH????? At first i was doing this for health reasons, but now its become a big thing where i really really want to be thin and i get so annoyed when i f*** up. I mean, im not sooooo big that when you see me you'd think oh my god look atthe size of her (i hope) but compared to her, i feel disgusting. but the reason she has got so thin is because she suffered from anorexia, so i feel terrible for being jealous. But she goes on about her "big beer belly" (shes a size 8) and i just want to scream!!!! She knows im trying to lose weight, so when she goes on about how fat she thinks she is, what the hell must she think of me???????
Oh my god,all this over a dream, sorry guys!! Just needed to let it all out xxx

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munkypooh

I know how you feel, I have really vivid dreams, and can actually wake up and then go back to dreaming about the same thing....it can really effect how you think about things and people in your real waking life...
However...it is just a dream, based on things you may unconsciously think, but that aren't really attached to the true situation in real life....

As for your friend, I have been too skinny in the (distant!) past, and when she is being paranoid about her own figure I think it is very unlikely that she judges you the same way, as when in that mindset it is only your own perceived faults that you see, and not applied to other people. Actually when I was a size 8 I used to be envious of my size 22 friend who seemed much more confident and glamourous than me!

I think all this dream is really saying is that you should be a bit kinder in the way you think about yourself

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Silence

Munkypooh is right... how you perceive yourself is different to how other people see you.
Don't be too hard on yourself Hezz.

~Silence~

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xowee-shortieox

Hey Hezz,
Im going through the same thing more or less at the moment in every aspect.
I got stop eating, i know its bad, but its so good and i know im doing wrong when i eat. You'll get there in the end hun

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Hezz123

feeling better today, lost 5lbs this weekso far so im back on track. dont know what i would do if i didnt have all you guys on minimins to talk to!! people who understand!! thansk everyone whos listened to me rant in the past few days. Im gonna be POSITIVE from now on! xx

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