I have been pondering and pontificating about starting to put effort into losing weight for about 5 years, but as a mum of one with a child just starting school, I really need to be motivating myself, I don't want her growing up without a mother and I don't want her bullied because of her mothers issues either.
I have tried WW and SW, but always online and with no support, I work full time in a sedentary job and just sit and snack, I snack at home, I snack at work, I don't even eat a proper breakfast and now I get out of breath climbing stairs.
I had a check up recently at the GP and I am now 27 stones, I was mortified, I knew I was putting on weight, but was too scared and embarrassed to get weighed, now I am going to have to force myself into taking these first steps in losing weight... I am really really shy, no-one knows this about me, but the thought of walking into a room with a lot of people, overweight or not, makes me feel sick, I am too embarrassed to go to the gym, to have people looking at me or sneering.
So this is my first step, I have never, ever discussed my weight issues with anyone, my friends do not mention it, no-ne ever mentions it, I have never spoken to anyone about how I feel, I feel so lonely and isolated, some women at work are doing SW to lose a few pounds, I feel jealous and also angry, even though I have no right to, it is my problem that I am terrified of anyone looking at me, not theirs, but I wish I could just walk up and join in the conversation.
I am hoping to find some support here, and to lend some support